I think i just have been very nervous at the moment but i calmed down and i think i found solution to my problems, i have found way to unban on servers and now i need to reconnect with my bf, in our times it's so easy to block anyone you want, that i need to find way to communicate with him somehow. But i believe that i will eventually find a way to message him. I don't think that "s word" is a way to solve any of problems, because it's completely unknown what could happen but i don't want to think about that things again and concentrate on a best way to solve everything, but i can't wait too much because every day I'm only getting further from that people and i will certainly do something on monday and save my not very active but still social life =]