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I Am A Failure
2 years ago
You're actually going to read this? I admire you
I had such aspirations...
20 years ago, I had joined this fandom with lofty goals. I wanted to create a world for my characters to live in. Compelling stories I could share with the world. And a cast of likable characters people wanted to see.
I threw myself into art, but it got too hard, so I gave up. Then I threw myself into writing, and then that got too hard, so I gave up. I tried relying on others, but it proved impossible.
And now, sitting here, reflecting on what I actually have accomplished, I realize I have next to nothing. My art was always third rate. My stories are badly constructed nonsense. And my characters are one dimensional at best. Worst of all, I have let my base instincts control the majority of my output.
20 years, and I have nothing. Nothing to show for what I wanted to accomplish. My endeavors will be lost to time, forgotten as the derivative trash it is.
I've looked deep within myself. I've tried to find some kind of motivation to improve myself. I just don't have it. I can't be one of those few who finds that creative spark to push through.
I am truly sorry everyone. I know I am letting you down with my decision. I have formed bonds with many of you, and I am likely hurting you with this decision. All I can say is please don't mourn for me. All I ever wanted was to spread happiness, so just please, remember the happy times that we had.
Goodbye everyone.
20 years ago, I had joined this fandom with lofty goals. I wanted to create a world for my characters to live in. Compelling stories I could share with the world. And a cast of likable characters people wanted to see.
I threw myself into art, but it got too hard, so I gave up. Then I threw myself into writing, and then that got too hard, so I gave up. I tried relying on others, but it proved impossible.
And now, sitting here, reflecting on what I actually have accomplished, I realize I have next to nothing. My art was always third rate. My stories are badly constructed nonsense. And my characters are one dimensional at best. Worst of all, I have let my base instincts control the majority of my output.
20 years, and I have nothing. Nothing to show for what I wanted to accomplish. My endeavors will be lost to time, forgotten as the derivative trash it is.
I've looked deep within myself. I've tried to find some kind of motivation to improve myself. I just don't have it. I can't be one of those few who finds that creative spark to push through.
I am truly sorry everyone. I know I am letting you down with my decision. I have formed bonds with many of you, and I am likely hurting you with this decision. All I can say is please don't mourn for me. All I ever wanted was to spread happiness, so just please, remember the happy times that we had.
Goodbye everyone.
Please don't do this.