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D&D Reservations and notes.
2 years ago
Personal notes on playing Dungeons & Dragons.
the reservations I have about making my campaign using my characters are a lot. for lack of better phrasing.
my first reservation is that I no longer desire to involve other people to help me tell a story. I'm not trying to say this because I'm trying to be conceited or selfish. I'm saying this because my experiences have been mostly negative. there have been a few positive experiences and these people know who they are, but at this juncture, I don't feel the need to seek out people anymore to help me tell any more stories about my characters, nor do I seek out people to help them tell stories about theirs. pretty much especially that. as I have too many “subs” demanding of me things I do not possess. The RP landscape is too different now. I’m not the same person I was, I’ve seen far too much, and done things I would like to drink to forget. This has not done the wonders for my mental health that one would think it would, having the freedom to explore ideas and things that I'd like to do with my characters. furthermore, it leaves them open to become vehicles for other people's ideas, although I never really wanted that in the first place.
The circles I've run in are a lot different than the Dungeons and Dragons landscape. although Dungeons & Dragons is not exactly an activity that is widely enjoyed by every person, the circles I've run Into are mostly positive. The RP circles themselves not so much. My brand of Storytelling and adventure is much different than what anyone is used to. my head Cannon is filled with hundreds and thousands of hours of downtime of a superhero team that never seems to go on missions or very rarely does, although they seem to enjoy a certain level of celebrity, even though the very nature of their superhero teams theme is controversial: All the heroes at the forefront are women with both equipment down below, acquired one way or another. Furthermore, their Supporting Cast Consists of men who love them, and I don’t mean like creep on them or anything untowardly like that. Honest and wholesome love. Although it's not unheard of for women to be in love with each other or in other cases to be in love with many people or sometimes just themselves. furthermore Down The Supporting Cast line is a pair of femboy catboys, both adults and tasked with keeping their affairs in order. Furthermore, there are multiple catgirls of various sizes and body types, there’s an Entire environmental disaster dedicated to or rather the cause of a multitude of mutations in the populace, mostly centered around their sex or gender, but some of them are technically the cause of either a species change or hybridization or possibly the cause of manifesting one or multiple superpowers. My storytelling would deal with downtime or dealing with crises of a more Community nature there are crises within their own lives or specifically the people they care about mostly the guys are usually targeted by Villains for kidnapping or whatever they have planned. and none of it is good. I don't shy away from some of the harder issues at least on a personal basis, but I am very reluctant to talk about those things in a group chat or a voice chat especially when I have anxieties about discussing issues of a sensitive nature. Furthermore, there are some circles that I'm in who expect me to play D&D but don't want to hear about awkward things like sex and healthy relationships, let alone the depths criminals will go to. Even though I think the first few parts are unfounded and not anything to worry about it's the other stuff that even has me thinking twice about even mentioning something like that. Do you know that one quest line in Cyberpunk 2077? you know the one. and if you know the one you know. it's one of those quests that is very hard to talk about, especially with people who have not played it. and even talking about it with those who have it can be super difficult, especially if they have issues with that sort of thing. when I started that Quest my friend said I was going to hate it. and he was right. That being said, I'm trying to look at it in a different light. Vee had an opportunity to make a difference in someone's life at a critical time when they were needed most. I know a lot of games put a prime focus on adventuring and just doing the good you can or writing wrongs and injustices or killing monsters that would hurt innocent people. and that's all well and good. but in a modern society or a futuristic Society, sometimes helping people can come in gentler forms. Kinder and compassionate forms. it's partially the reason why I resonate With The Star Trek universe because a portion of that is about that. and while the tech is cool, all that Tech is way too far advanced for my Comic Book Heroes to have access to, even though in my head Canon, my main captain joins the superhero team as a masked hero whose identity is supposed to be hidden. But my point is this, if every Quest and every AdventureWe were a cakewalk or were some kind of celebrated occasion or something fairly mundane and normal, there would be no emotion and there would be no passion. and there would be no compassion. it would just be murder hobos.
Which brings me to my next point. I don't feel like I can tell the stories that they want to see I feel like I can tell the stories that I want to see. furthermore, I haven't made room for a new generation of Heroes. after the Valkyries are dead that's it. another team can take their place if I so choose, but that's highly unlikely. I'm not making a third team. not this time. not now. and probably not ever again.
I have to adopt someone else's IP ideas to make the new players work, as I Would Not only would I never expect anyone who joins my games to play any of my characters, I wouldn't want them to. Not only would that do both of us a disservice but I'd ruin the game simply because I was I would be trying to do everything I could to save my character who was being frustratingly played by someone who didn't know how to use them the the best of their ability. that is another reason why I don't want to do my campaign.
The third issue I have is that in my head Canon, the society that exists now is a society that is completely split down the middle, or rather lines are being drawn. there are people who either don't care or rather like the Valkyries And there are people who either hate them or wish they should be highly regulated. furthermore, even though racism isn’t eradicated, Neither is speciesism, and many of the Valkyries are either cat people, Moontouched (humanoid non-humans), Robots/AI, And other original Creations I haven't quite introduced yet. Furthermore, people still are hung up on the old beliefs about sex and gender, Archaic views need to go but these are mostly held by people who are usually over the age of 30 to 35. so much in fact that one of the Valkyries started their version of Hollywood So that people of mixed species, genders, and sexes Could get a fair shake when making films. films were initially received fairly well, provided that love scenes didn't get too graphic or explicit. meanwhile, there was a whole new industry based on serving adult content to those willing to pay for these new life forms.
Also, the introductions of aliens to the planet and the setting raise a lot of new questions and a lot of new concerns and all of these issues are probably going on all at once on top of all the problems that the world is already having and a bunch of problems that it never had before with the introduction of several fantasy races and monster Races that populated the planet in the 1960s. it's a lot to keep track of and honestly, it's I just don't have a lot of interest in DMing when I have no material, no plan, and no roleplaying skills.
My last issue is that I really don't want NSFW Content to be the main focus of the campaign. if the players want to use their characters to the most social maximum as possible that's fine. if they want to be in a relationship or get married that's fine too but honestly I'm not really up for role-playing those things all the way through, nor am I willing to go into descriptive detail about any interludes or like any trips to seedy establishments or whatever. Originally the idea with my seconds campaign was to have everyone meet their first Contact at a restaurant that employs adult catpeople and is known for havign great coffee. I'm glad I never did that idea and I'm glad it never got off the ground. like I said my brain isn't exactly filled with the best ideas.
the reservations I have about making my campaign using my characters are a lot. for lack of better phrasing.
my first reservation is that I no longer desire to involve other people to help me tell a story. I'm not trying to say this because I'm trying to be conceited or selfish. I'm saying this because my experiences have been mostly negative. there have been a few positive experiences and these people know who they are, but at this juncture, I don't feel the need to seek out people anymore to help me tell any more stories about my characters, nor do I seek out people to help them tell stories about theirs. pretty much especially that. as I have too many “subs” demanding of me things I do not possess. The RP landscape is too different now. I’m not the same person I was, I’ve seen far too much, and done things I would like to drink to forget. This has not done the wonders for my mental health that one would think it would, having the freedom to explore ideas and things that I'd like to do with my characters. furthermore, it leaves them open to become vehicles for other people's ideas, although I never really wanted that in the first place.
The circles I've run in are a lot different than the Dungeons and Dragons landscape. although Dungeons & Dragons is not exactly an activity that is widely enjoyed by every person, the circles I've run Into are mostly positive. The RP circles themselves not so much. My brand of Storytelling and adventure is much different than what anyone is used to. my head Cannon is filled with hundreds and thousands of hours of downtime of a superhero team that never seems to go on missions or very rarely does, although they seem to enjoy a certain level of celebrity, even though the very nature of their superhero teams theme is controversial: All the heroes at the forefront are women with both equipment down below, acquired one way or another. Furthermore, their Supporting Cast Consists of men who love them, and I don’t mean like creep on them or anything untowardly like that. Honest and wholesome love. Although it's not unheard of for women to be in love with each other or in other cases to be in love with many people or sometimes just themselves. furthermore Down The Supporting Cast line is a pair of femboy catboys, both adults and tasked with keeping their affairs in order. Furthermore, there are multiple catgirls of various sizes and body types, there’s an Entire environmental disaster dedicated to or rather the cause of a multitude of mutations in the populace, mostly centered around their sex or gender, but some of them are technically the cause of either a species change or hybridization or possibly the cause of manifesting one or multiple superpowers. My storytelling would deal with downtime or dealing with crises of a more Community nature there are crises within their own lives or specifically the people they care about mostly the guys are usually targeted by Villains for kidnapping or whatever they have planned. and none of it is good. I don't shy away from some of the harder issues at least on a personal basis, but I am very reluctant to talk about those things in a group chat or a voice chat especially when I have anxieties about discussing issues of a sensitive nature. Furthermore, there are some circles that I'm in who expect me to play D&D but don't want to hear about awkward things like sex and healthy relationships, let alone the depths criminals will go to. Even though I think the first few parts are unfounded and not anything to worry about it's the other stuff that even has me thinking twice about even mentioning something like that. Do you know that one quest line in Cyberpunk 2077? you know the one. and if you know the one you know. it's one of those quests that is very hard to talk about, especially with people who have not played it. and even talking about it with those who have it can be super difficult, especially if they have issues with that sort of thing. when I started that Quest my friend said I was going to hate it. and he was right. That being said, I'm trying to look at it in a different light. Vee had an opportunity to make a difference in someone's life at a critical time when they were needed most. I know a lot of games put a prime focus on adventuring and just doing the good you can or writing wrongs and injustices or killing monsters that would hurt innocent people. and that's all well and good. but in a modern society or a futuristic Society, sometimes helping people can come in gentler forms. Kinder and compassionate forms. it's partially the reason why I resonate With The Star Trek universe because a portion of that is about that. and while the tech is cool, all that Tech is way too far advanced for my Comic Book Heroes to have access to, even though in my head Canon, my main captain joins the superhero team as a masked hero whose identity is supposed to be hidden. But my point is this, if every Quest and every AdventureWe were a cakewalk or were some kind of celebrated occasion or something fairly mundane and normal, there would be no emotion and there would be no passion. and there would be no compassion. it would just be murder hobos.
Which brings me to my next point. I don't feel like I can tell the stories that they want to see I feel like I can tell the stories that I want to see. furthermore, I haven't made room for a new generation of Heroes. after the Valkyries are dead that's it. another team can take their place if I so choose, but that's highly unlikely. I'm not making a third team. not this time. not now. and probably not ever again.
I have to adopt someone else's IP ideas to make the new players work, as I Would Not only would I never expect anyone who joins my games to play any of my characters, I wouldn't want them to. Not only would that do both of us a disservice but I'd ruin the game simply because I was I would be trying to do everything I could to save my character who was being frustratingly played by someone who didn't know how to use them the the best of their ability. that is another reason why I don't want to do my campaign.
The third issue I have is that in my head Canon, the society that exists now is a society that is completely split down the middle, or rather lines are being drawn. there are people who either don't care or rather like the Valkyries And there are people who either hate them or wish they should be highly regulated. furthermore, even though racism isn’t eradicated, Neither is speciesism, and many of the Valkyries are either cat people, Moontouched (humanoid non-humans), Robots/AI, And other original Creations I haven't quite introduced yet. Furthermore, people still are hung up on the old beliefs about sex and gender, Archaic views need to go but these are mostly held by people who are usually over the age of 30 to 35. so much in fact that one of the Valkyries started their version of Hollywood So that people of mixed species, genders, and sexes Could get a fair shake when making films. films were initially received fairly well, provided that love scenes didn't get too graphic or explicit. meanwhile, there was a whole new industry based on serving adult content to those willing to pay for these new life forms.
Also, the introductions of aliens to the planet and the setting raise a lot of new questions and a lot of new concerns and all of these issues are probably going on all at once on top of all the problems that the world is already having and a bunch of problems that it never had before with the introduction of several fantasy races and monster Races that populated the planet in the 1960s. it's a lot to keep track of and honestly, it's I just don't have a lot of interest in DMing when I have no material, no plan, and no roleplaying skills.
My last issue is that I really don't want NSFW Content to be the main focus of the campaign. if the players want to use their characters to the most social maximum as possible that's fine. if they want to be in a relationship or get married that's fine too but honestly I'm not really up for role-playing those things all the way through, nor am I willing to go into descriptive detail about any interludes or like any trips to seedy establishments or whatever. Originally the idea with my seconds campaign was to have everyone meet their first Contact at a restaurant that employs adult catpeople and is known for havign great coffee. I'm glad I never did that idea and I'm glad it never got off the ground. like I said my brain isn't exactly filled with the best ideas.
