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Russian invasion of Ukraine - two years after
a year ago
Hello again. I've been quite a ghost recently, for that I am sorry.
Today, 24th of February, is a day when mine and all ukrainians dreams, hopes and lives went crashing down. A day that supposed to be a joy for me, for I was traveling to Czech Republic to visit my beloved partner once again, only to quit Polish borders after 8 tiring hours of waiting. Only to enter the nightmare, with phones now awake and the others keep repeating - "the war started."
My life since then was never the same.
I woke up daily to news of another city, another house being bombed by russian agressors. Another life taking. I live with never-going fear that one day, that house, that family, will be mine.
I was crying a lot. I went throught extremely dangerous depressive episode and almost lost everything i've loved - my passion, my loved one, a place to live. In a way finding work in the Amazon warehouse saved my soul for it helped me gain my focus back. But even then, I really hate writing online these days. After start of russian invasion, after Bucha, Mariupol, Kherson, Kachovka and many, many more horrible events, I just can't bring myself to talk to people online even. I'm sorry if you feel ignored - it's a mental block I'm struggling still to break.
I've lost a bunch of people dear to me, in horrible, painful deaths. Like family friend, who inspired me to draw and who was a very talented, incredibly gifted artist. Just recently became a dad. Blown to pieces on a minefield during mission. Only his hand remained.
It's more scars after what I've went throught with my granny and grandpa passing from terrible cancer pain.
I can't stand hearing Russian language. Used to write in it, speak IRL,enjoy some media. All gone now, feels alien and brings me pain. I'm glad that in a place I live I barely hear it around myself anymore. Just reading it online makes me physically sick.
The war is still going.
But you can make a difference and even with tinniest bits of donations or spreading the word out.
Please, consider spreading a word or donating to help ukrainians here: https://u24.gov.ua
You can choose yourself which funding to support.
Thank you for reading this journal. It was hard to write.
Stay safe.
Today, 24th of February, is a day when mine and all ukrainians dreams, hopes and lives went crashing down. A day that supposed to be a joy for me, for I was traveling to Czech Republic to visit my beloved partner once again, only to quit Polish borders after 8 tiring hours of waiting. Only to enter the nightmare, with phones now awake and the others keep repeating - "the war started."
My life since then was never the same.
I woke up daily to news of another city, another house being bombed by russian agressors. Another life taking. I live with never-going fear that one day, that house, that family, will be mine.
I was crying a lot. I went throught extremely dangerous depressive episode and almost lost everything i've loved - my passion, my loved one, a place to live. In a way finding work in the Amazon warehouse saved my soul for it helped me gain my focus back. But even then, I really hate writing online these days. After start of russian invasion, after Bucha, Mariupol, Kherson, Kachovka and many, many more horrible events, I just can't bring myself to talk to people online even. I'm sorry if you feel ignored - it's a mental block I'm struggling still to break.
I've lost a bunch of people dear to me, in horrible, painful deaths. Like family friend, who inspired me to draw and who was a very talented, incredibly gifted artist. Just recently became a dad. Blown to pieces on a minefield during mission. Only his hand remained.
It's more scars after what I've went throught with my granny and grandpa passing from terrible cancer pain.
I can't stand hearing Russian language. Used to write in it, speak IRL,enjoy some media. All gone now, feels alien and brings me pain. I'm glad that in a place I live I barely hear it around myself anymore. Just reading it online makes me physically sick.
The war is still going.
But you can make a difference and even with tinniest bits of donations or spreading the word out.
Please, consider spreading a word or donating to help ukrainians here: https://u24.gov.ua
You can choose yourself which funding to support.
Thank you for reading this journal. It was hard to write.
Stay safe.
menpeople to do nothing" (edits are mine). https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edmun....._do_nothing%22im trying to deal with depression by spending my amazon cash on commissioning ukrainians and sending to fundraisers, but i only managed doing so in the last couple of months
so there's a feel of immense guilt
It's a haunting situation overall. And it genuinely disheartens me how slow aid has been, and because of that, Russia now has firm control over the lands they stole.
Fuck Russia, honestly. And anyone and everyone who sympathizes with them on this. My heart goes out to Ukraine, it's courage, valor and tragedy it's gone through.
I'm sorry for all you've gone through personally.