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No shine on friday
a year ago
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I'm really sorry but I wasn't able to finish shine for this coming Friday. So it's going to be late.
I hafta go to Scotland tomorrow and won't be back till late Sunday night and then I'm out all day on Monday for classes. The last class of the term actually so that was good timing I guess. So I won't be able to work on shine till Tuesday next week at the very earliest.
My dad's funeral is on Thursday. I wrote stuff today to read at the service. I was supposed to do that yesterday but was in such a creative block. I tried to summarise his life and then scrapped that idea. It feels impossible and insulting. So instead I picked a few of the good childhood memories to share. It's strange how we crystallise and condense folk at their funerals, tiptoe around the dark parts. I think I've been genuine with my contribution whilst also holding back. I feel very confused about it all truth be told,
People who have read Found and shine will already know my feelings about my dad are complicated. Jack from found is based on my dad in a very raw and yet roundabout way and obviously Peter in shine too embodies him also. My art has helped work through some of my feelings about him but there's so much more of it and it was really only him dying that's made me realise how much of this is still left to unpick.
It's gonna take a while. Luckily I'm already doing therapy so that's one hurdle I'm already climbing
Anyway thank you for your patience. And see you on the other side of all of this
I hafta go to Scotland tomorrow and won't be back till late Sunday night and then I'm out all day on Monday for classes. The last class of the term actually so that was good timing I guess. So I won't be able to work on shine till Tuesday next week at the very earliest.
My dad's funeral is on Thursday. I wrote stuff today to read at the service. I was supposed to do that yesterday but was in such a creative block. I tried to summarise his life and then scrapped that idea. It feels impossible and insulting. So instead I picked a few of the good childhood memories to share. It's strange how we crystallise and condense folk at their funerals, tiptoe around the dark parts. I think I've been genuine with my contribution whilst also holding back. I feel very confused about it all truth be told,
People who have read Found and shine will already know my feelings about my dad are complicated. Jack from found is based on my dad in a very raw and yet roundabout way and obviously Peter in shine too embodies him also. My art has helped work through some of my feelings about him but there's so much more of it and it was really only him dying that's made me realise how much of this is still left to unpick.
It's gonna take a while. Luckily I'm already doing therapy so that's one hurdle I'm already climbing
Anyway thank you for your patience. And see you on the other side of all of this
The odd thing about grief is that it never gets less. You always miss the person you loved. But... The rest of your life grows and makes the grief take up less of it as you learn to live with the absence. You picked from among your good memories. That's a great way to start, especially with a parent, because I've never yet met a parent who didn't want the best for his or her children, even if they had not the first clue how to show love.
We will be here, so please, take care of yourself and your needs, Ms. Sammy.
Hopefully all goes smoothly.
I hope it goes well.
When I did it, I made the way I knew my dad would have liked, so I didn't really care what the attendees thought. That gave me the go. I was doing for my dad, not for them!
All the best for this week, we're all behind you! *hugs*
...try to remember the good stuff, and let the bad stuff go.
Take a few weeks off to process all of this. We will be here when you are ready to come back. There is no need to stress about a comic when you have so much else on your plate that is way more important.
I wish you the best.
To the latter part, funerals are such a foreign concept to me, no matter how many I go to, like the person is dead they don't care what goes on with their corpse, and the families are basically just there to hear about a person's positive impact without actual acknowledgement of who they were as a person good or bad
Personally when I die, if folks try to pull that "he was a saint" crap, I'm probably coming back to haunt them
I will be thinking of you across the week.
Hugs, Jo.
Take all the time you need. 🫂
Just had a long discussion about how childhood influences your life and the impact is so strong it is scary. Years and even decades of work…
Unfortunately being so forward looking cost me some childhood which is part of why I'm a little now. Only with my own money this time.
Take all the time you need
Extra hugs