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I drew some art today. That felt good. Felt like me for the first time in a month.
Yesterday I handed in my big super important essay/practical exam thing that if I pass gets me a magic bit of paper that says I can start practicing therapy on real people in a placement setting. I've been looking specifically for LGBTQIA+ charities and placements to work with and you know even here So close to London, there's barely anything available. Two places, Two and one of them is like you have to be LGBT to apply....and Im an A. So I don't think I qualify...
In other news My Mum is not any better being in the hospital. In fact the hospital randomly decided they dont want her anymore so They're saying they're gonna let her out on Monday. So my stress levels are already starting to climb again. She's really unwell and a proper danger to herself. She's gonna get herself arrested because the police wont understand that she's in psychosis. I dont know what the hospital has been doing really cause they havent given her any kind of medication plan or any kind of crisis plan at all, they've let her keep her mobile phone which means she's randomly phoning folk at all hours of the night, including the police. Whats worse is she created a new facebook account...with my Dad's name and was like friend requesting everyone and anyone pretending to be my Dad.... She's not a well woman and the idea she's just gonna be put back on the street feels me full of so much dread.
I know it's because the hospital has a limited amount of space and beds, but surely theres got to be some inbetween stage, or at least some training they can give me and my sisters on how to deal with her whilst she's like this.
In other other news Daddy's job is gone, we had a feeling something was going on in his company and yeah, hunches were right. Our Car broke and we both caught Norovirus last week which...um..I'd never had before and really hope to never ever have it again cause I swear I have never been that sick in my life. I was so close to phoning an ambulance thinking I was really gonna be in serious medical trouble if stuff didn't stop. I understand now why Norovirus ends up in the news, up until that point I just thought it was a slightly worse version of a tummy bug.
We have savings for these sorts of situations so should be okay, but it's a bit of a bit of a harsh year so far. Im kinda done with it already LOL
but...I think thats pretty much us hit our quota for bad stuff this year. I've done a lot of gardening (mainly because i couldnt concentrate on anything so went outside and killed weeds for a few days and so now theres a space outside we can sit, which makes me feel happier, im trying to grow some sweetcorn and brocolli and cucumbers and i might buy a kiwi vine or two to see if thats growable...I dunno. Its helping me to find some time for me in amongs all this chaos really.
Yesterday I handed in my big super important essay/practical exam thing that if I pass gets me a magic bit of paper that says I can start practicing therapy on real people in a placement setting. I've been looking specifically for LGBTQIA+ charities and placements to work with and you know even here So close to London, there's barely anything available. Two places, Two and one of them is like you have to be LGBT to apply....and Im an A. So I don't think I qualify...
In other news My Mum is not any better being in the hospital. In fact the hospital randomly decided they dont want her anymore so They're saying they're gonna let her out on Monday. So my stress levels are already starting to climb again. She's really unwell and a proper danger to herself. She's gonna get herself arrested because the police wont understand that she's in psychosis. I dont know what the hospital has been doing really cause they havent given her any kind of medication plan or any kind of crisis plan at all, they've let her keep her mobile phone which means she's randomly phoning folk at all hours of the night, including the police. Whats worse is she created a new facebook account...with my Dad's name and was like friend requesting everyone and anyone pretending to be my Dad.... She's not a well woman and the idea she's just gonna be put back on the street feels me full of so much dread.
I know it's because the hospital has a limited amount of space and beds, but surely theres got to be some inbetween stage, or at least some training they can give me and my sisters on how to deal with her whilst she's like this.
In other other news Daddy's job is gone, we had a feeling something was going on in his company and yeah, hunches were right. Our Car broke and we both caught Norovirus last week which...um..I'd never had before and really hope to never ever have it again cause I swear I have never been that sick in my life. I was so close to phoning an ambulance thinking I was really gonna be in serious medical trouble if stuff didn't stop. I understand now why Norovirus ends up in the news, up until that point I just thought it was a slightly worse version of a tummy bug.
We have savings for these sorts of situations so should be okay, but it's a bit of a bit of a harsh year so far. Im kinda done with it already LOL
but...I think thats pretty much us hit our quota for bad stuff this year. I've done a lot of gardening (mainly because i couldnt concentrate on anything so went outside and killed weeds for a few days and so now theres a space outside we can sit, which makes me feel happier, im trying to grow some sweetcorn and brocolli and cucumbers and i might buy a kiwi vine or two to see if thats growable...I dunno. Its helping me to find some time for me in amongs all this chaos really.
"Norovirus, also known as Norwalk virus and sometimes referred to as the winter vomiting disease, is the most common cause of gastroenteritis. Infection is characterized by non-bloody diarrhea, vomiting, and stomach pain. Fever or headaches may also occur. Symptoms usually develop 12 to 48 hours after being exposed, and recovery typically occurs within one to three days. Complications are uncommon, but may include dehydration, especially in the young, the old, and those with other health problems."
It is hard to beat the taste of your own grown veggies. Love me some home grown tomatoes.
Here’s hoping to some good news soon 💕
Re: placement
I'd still apply to the LGBT position. You might not be exactly what they are expecting/wanting as an A, but it might also be a good thing for them to at least look at your file.
In the end, these sorts of jobs applications are just as much about applying as to getting your name out there, after all. And who knows, they might take you in because You're just what they are looking for, too. :3
And worst case, they thank you for applying.
I do hope things get better overall for you, squig. And for your daddy. And your mum. :/
*hugs*
LGBT covers so much more than those letters let on anymore. You have the right intentions and you need to give them the opportunity to see that you may be a fantastic fit for their programs and the people they represent.
Or am I making too many assumptions and being way to lenient with how the world should see bi people?
It is a sexuality, but not everyone who is bi, gay, or lesbian are always into sex either, having an ace there could help a lot of people who are romantically attracted to their same chromosomes or both sets, or it doesn't matter what chromosomes they have, but also don't feel the need nor desire for sex and their romantic feelings can be validated, like yours are valid.
I'd also add my voice to the chorus suggesting it might be worth at least asking about whether you qualify for the LGBT position...
as for the rest of the situation, Im so sorry star.
But, you are SO close to getting your certification, keep pushing girl!
Good stuff with growing fruit and veg. Maybe you could set up an Honesty Box with any surplus ^^
Lets hope the clouds open for the rest of the year ^^ *🐨hugs*
They also can't force patients to take medicine or therapy if the patient refuses it. My mom needed to be on a BIPAP mask for COPD but she refused to wear one, so the staff couldn't make her wear it. Thing is, she had dementia, so she really was NOT capable of making an informed decision. With the mask on, she was alert. With it off, she lapsed into unconsciousness. Fun stuff.
A friend of mine was having some mental issues--we still don't know what. It started with her having chronic insomnia. She progressed to being manic, ending up in the hospital (against her will) calling people at all hours to complain, in a non-stop tirade of words, about her husband, the hospital workers, or whatever. She called the police on the nurses because they were not attending to her fast enough. She wanted me to call 911 for her, and I live four states away. All through this, she insisted she was OK, that she just was stressed and was having "pressured speech," and refused medication or therapy because she "wasn't crazy." Meanwhile she was having screaming and crying fits in the hospital.
She ended up having a heart attack and dying.
So I hope you can leverage the resources of your teachers to try to get some help for your mum.
My bro, who has been my roommate for the past 12 years went through something rough and it really knocked me loose, I started appreciating what I have more and will take it for granted far less.
You are very strong. I dont know your hobbies outside of art, but for the longest time just from the scare and the dread, I couldnt even focus on my hobbies.
I hope things move forward well for you, and they arent too anxiety riddled. You deserve to be happy, and I know you will be awesome therapist. Keep kicking ass.
But I really think that you qualify for working in a LGBTQIA+ setting. If anything you being A is probably a big asset! I know I went to a youth centre with my own gender identity thoughts and the person I talked with barely knew what a nonbinary person even was and that was so disheartening to not feel like you are talking with someone knowledged.
So I imagine that there is a lot of aces out there that get dismissed or feel the same way I did when their therapists or councillors don't have the full knowledge that you do first-hand! LGBTQIA+ is for every letter and one or the other should never be worth more or less than the other.
I truly wish you and your family all of the best, especially with your mum. That sounds very worrying that they let her out even in that condition.
Norovirus sounds horrible! I wish you and your Daddy a speedy recovery. Terribly sorry about his job.
All in all, I wish you the best wishes all around!