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a year ago
Hey'all.
This is somewhat of a vent post, somewhat of an update post.
I've been in pain since early February.
The fact that that isn't an exaggeration is the kicker. At the start of Febuary, I discovered I had an STI on my ass. I went in for treatment, and had a very bad reaction to the cream they gave me. I have been in pain for every waking hour since. I bleed every day. It's gotten infected multiple times. I've been in pain since early February.
Right now, I am in week 10 of the waiting list for surgery. The average is 12, the supposed maximum is 18 weeks for all services, but plenty of people are over that. And listen - I'm tired, but I'm not mad about this. I love the NHS. I could not afford surgery if I lived anywhere else - I haven't been able to work since any sweating increases the risk of infection, and increases the irritation fivefold. I wasn't working anyway in January, so my gross income since the 1st of January is somewhere around ~£75. I'm still fine for money, I'm surviving on generosity and savings, but I couldn't afford a big expense like surgery, even in a place where it's only a couple hundred euros or whatever.
So what I'm saying is it's a miracle I've been able to share any stories with you at all, lol.
I've definitely written a lot of words this year, but it's extremely hard to focus or write anything good when on some days I need to be taking hourly care of this shit, and other days I get interrupted by pangs of pain strong enough to be from the devil's trident. And I fucking love writing! It's one of the only things keeping me sane - don't get me wrong - but I have spent far too much time sitting at the keyboard and waiting to muster creative energy that isn't there this year.
I'm told recovery from this surgery is gonna suck pain-wise, and there's actually no guarantee that the STI that's been keeping me from healing naturally isn't just gonna come right back, but I'm still longing for it. I doubt I'll be writing much in that first week back, in fact I intend on stealing my sister's copy of Tears of the Kingdom and lying in bed for a week. I've heard it's good, and I really enjoyed botw.
Keen-eyed readers may have noticed my big burst of inspiration for Occam's Emporium that started up fast and even faster came to a grinding halt lmao. I mean most of that is just the nature of AuDHD but yeah finding inspiration like that is very hard in my current situation.
Keen-brained readers might remember my author's note from the start of Nick Gets Fucked 2A, in which I apologised for that taking two years to write, and hoped to not take as long for the next one?
Yeah...........
We're coming up on the 1 year anniversary of my big data loss on 3A that I wrote about in a couple of previous journals. I think I'm now back up to somewhere around the wordcount that I was before the loss! But as much as it's probably the thing I *want* to write most, it's definitely the hardest. Extremely doubtful of avoiding making that AN very ironic.
I'm looking at this wall of text right now and just thinking "see this is what i mean" lol. Writing itself is not the issue, it's being creative and making GOOD writing that's the issue at the moment.
So other than the other half of that commission, which I am steadily working on, don't expect anything else from me this year. I don't know when things will get better.
This isn't a begging post, as I said I'm in no financial danger, but I'll leave my Ko-fi here like I do below all my stories.
https://ko-fi.com/yoyofoxwell
Just in case you feel like giving me the means for me to have a Greggs or a sugary drink every now and again. The actual request I'll make is that you go and read one of the things I'm proudest of releasing this year. Either Rock, Paper, Scissors, Pie! or the narrative continuation of Occam's. I know that statistically speaking at least one of those will expose you to kinks you're not familiar with, but try them! I think they're really good :)
As always, DMs are open. Here, telegram, bluesky. I'm not really keen on pity/sympathy messages, but I am an extrovert so people to chat to about dumb stuff is a very fun distraction.
Thanks for listening, and Thanks for continuing to read. There will be more. Eventually.
Yoyo.
This is somewhat of a vent post, somewhat of an update post.
I've been in pain since early February.
The fact that that isn't an exaggeration is the kicker. At the start of Febuary, I discovered I had an STI on my ass. I went in for treatment, and had a very bad reaction to the cream they gave me. I have been in pain for every waking hour since. I bleed every day. It's gotten infected multiple times. I've been in pain since early February.
Right now, I am in week 10 of the waiting list for surgery. The average is 12, the supposed maximum is 18 weeks for all services, but plenty of people are over that. And listen - I'm tired, but I'm not mad about this. I love the NHS. I could not afford surgery if I lived anywhere else - I haven't been able to work since any sweating increases the risk of infection, and increases the irritation fivefold. I wasn't working anyway in January, so my gross income since the 1st of January is somewhere around ~£75. I'm still fine for money, I'm surviving on generosity and savings, but I couldn't afford a big expense like surgery, even in a place where it's only a couple hundred euros or whatever.
So what I'm saying is it's a miracle I've been able to share any stories with you at all, lol.
I've definitely written a lot of words this year, but it's extremely hard to focus or write anything good when on some days I need to be taking hourly care of this shit, and other days I get interrupted by pangs of pain strong enough to be from the devil's trident. And I fucking love writing! It's one of the only things keeping me sane - don't get me wrong - but I have spent far too much time sitting at the keyboard and waiting to muster creative energy that isn't there this year.
I'm told recovery from this surgery is gonna suck pain-wise, and there's actually no guarantee that the STI that's been keeping me from healing naturally isn't just gonna come right back, but I'm still longing for it. I doubt I'll be writing much in that first week back, in fact I intend on stealing my sister's copy of Tears of the Kingdom and lying in bed for a week. I've heard it's good, and I really enjoyed botw.
Keen-eyed readers may have noticed my big burst of inspiration for Occam's Emporium that started up fast and even faster came to a grinding halt lmao. I mean most of that is just the nature of AuDHD but yeah finding inspiration like that is very hard in my current situation.
Keen-brained readers might remember my author's note from the start of Nick Gets Fucked 2A, in which I apologised for that taking two years to write, and hoped to not take as long for the next one?
Yeah...........
We're coming up on the 1 year anniversary of my big data loss on 3A that I wrote about in a couple of previous journals. I think I'm now back up to somewhere around the wordcount that I was before the loss! But as much as it's probably the thing I *want* to write most, it's definitely the hardest. Extremely doubtful of avoiding making that AN very ironic.
I'm looking at this wall of text right now and just thinking "see this is what i mean" lol. Writing itself is not the issue, it's being creative and making GOOD writing that's the issue at the moment.
So other than the other half of that commission, which I am steadily working on, don't expect anything else from me this year. I don't know when things will get better.
This isn't a begging post, as I said I'm in no financial danger, but I'll leave my Ko-fi here like I do below all my stories.
https://ko-fi.com/yoyofoxwell
Just in case you feel like giving me the means for me to have a Greggs or a sugary drink every now and again. The actual request I'll make is that you go and read one of the things I'm proudest of releasing this year. Either Rock, Paper, Scissors, Pie! or the narrative continuation of Occam's. I know that statistically speaking at least one of those will expose you to kinks you're not familiar with, but try them! I think they're really good :)
As always, DMs are open. Here, telegram, bluesky. I'm not really keen on pity/sympathy messages, but I am an extrovert so people to chat to about dumb stuff is a very fun distraction.
Thanks for listening, and Thanks for continuing to read. There will be more. Eventually.
Yoyo.
