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Why Aren't Ya Replying?
9 months ago
>>>If this journal is before 2020, I was younger than 18 and experienced a lot of neurological trauma :woozy_face:
>>>If this journal is before 2022 August 17th this was before I was a furry!
>>>If this journal is before 2022 August 17th this was before I was a furry!
Many of you might notice that I haven't been replying much if at all ;p no it's not due to you, I've just gotten REALLY hella tired as I somewhat hinted at in https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10896137/ and reflected upon more in https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10893849/ would happen.
I have a ton of breathing difficulty from allergies - and with the allergies themselves - my body is just constantly fighting itself (immune response to dog skin/hair or something else here, the irony being a dog furry) or something and it's affecting me a loooot.
Most of the time I can barely think (because more focused on trying to breathe aaaa) and usually just stare off. I swear I feel like 40 years or more older than I actually am (I'm 22 rn but feel like 62 or 72 :weary:). The compounded stress from IRL has had a toll on me too, probably more so than I imagine but ehhhh
With that said, I barely have the brain power to make good teases or come up with something cool or intelligent to say, so I just don't bother. Don't have the energy to do any RP either. I might still release more of the exotic stuff I have - it's really easy for me to make and set up and idk why it's easier than talking :wheeze:
And if it's not any of the above, it's privacy - I lack SOOO much privacy to do almost ANYTHING. I need time to think and create a message - but it's hard when I have siblings suddenly invading my personal space or my mother demanding me to do stuff on a whim. So I'm always in like guard watch mode, ensuring no one is near invading my personal space - oh and making adequate excuses whenever questioned about whatever I'm doing because siblings are curious (and like to gossip quite a bit) and my mother suspicious of me - it's not fun :weary:
But yeah, I've read what y'all have said ahehehe, so don't think I've gone out ignorin' ya ;p
I've saved some of your messages to a private channel of mine so that I don't forget to reply - or to ensure it doesn't get flooded by other messages (like my shouts for example, doesn't really save messages there unfortunately :weary: so I have to save them somewhere else)
TL;DR: yeah I basically just wanted to say I'm not ignoring anyone on purpose, I do read what y'all say I just don't have the energy in me to reply, like almost ever - and if it's not issues with energy - I just don't have any privacy.
I have a ton of breathing difficulty from allergies - and with the allergies themselves - my body is just constantly fighting itself (immune response to dog skin/hair or something else here, the irony being a dog furry) or something and it's affecting me a loooot.
Most of the time I can barely think (because more focused on trying to breathe aaaa) and usually just stare off. I swear I feel like 40 years or more older than I actually am (I'm 22 rn but feel like 62 or 72 :weary:). The compounded stress from IRL has had a toll on me too, probably more so than I imagine but ehhhh
With that said, I barely have the brain power to make good teases or come up with something cool or intelligent to say, so I just don't bother. Don't have the energy to do any RP either. I might still release more of the exotic stuff I have - it's really easy for me to make and set up and idk why it's easier than talking :wheeze:
And if it's not any of the above, it's privacy - I lack SOOO much privacy to do almost ANYTHING. I need time to think and create a message - but it's hard when I have siblings suddenly invading my personal space or my mother demanding me to do stuff on a whim. So I'm always in like guard watch mode, ensuring no one is near invading my personal space - oh and making adequate excuses whenever questioned about whatever I'm doing because siblings are curious (and like to gossip quite a bit) and my mother suspicious of me - it's not fun :weary:
But yeah, I've read what y'all have said ahehehe, so don't think I've gone out ignorin' ya ;p
I've saved some of your messages to a private channel of mine so that I don't forget to reply - or to ensure it doesn't get flooded by other messages (like my shouts for example, doesn't really save messages there unfortunately :weary: so I have to save them somewhere else)
TL;DR: yeah I basically just wanted to say I'm not ignoring anyone on purpose, I do read what y'all say I just don't have the energy in me to reply, like almost ever - and if it's not issues with energy - I just don't have any privacy.
It is good to know that you are okay so far and be less active just by being tired.
Maybe you should take a break and come back when you feel better. Nobody would be mad or sad about that. Your health is one of the most importent things that you have in your life. So please watch on yourslef my fren
Yeah :D
I've debated it, and as everyone has seen here, I've been mostly inactive heh. I'm not sure what I exactly need to feel better, but I'm trying to figure it out, especially with close friends. And TRUEEEE, thankie so much Keym <333
I'm lucky now where I'm in an AirBNB rn where I could, but still tired and the walls are not too soundproof'd so I don't wanna bother my neighbour if I can help it lmaoooo.
TRUE on that "ruin your life", or if you depend on living with them too... It's like being on a deserted island or in a room with a corrupt boss - can't say anything to anyone without potential reprisal. Hope its been getting better for ya over there tho :o
Awwwh heck. Vibe, been pretty distracted with every happenings :weary: