i just wanted to share some of how ive been feeling lately and not really give an explanation or excuse but rather let you see where i'm at in life currently.

so, to put it plainly, i dont really get much joy out of drawing porn. most of the time i'm drawing it, i feel like im just trying to fulfill a quota for how much i should post and how horny it should be, and it really sucks any enjoyment i get from making art out of the process.

i like doin horny stuff, and designing characters that people think are really hot is very nice when i get feedback, but i dont know. making art specifically to post based on what i think is gonna get interactions and constantly feeling like my art isnt horny enough for people to care about sucks the soul out of me. this feeling has been especially boosted from working a full time job, i just dont have the energy to keep up with it anymore.

i feel bad when im not posting furry stuff consistently but truthfully its cause im drawing a bunch of my own sfw oc artwork thats completely unrelated. im much happier doing that! its fun getting to create stuff for me and only me and not constantly worry about if its gonna get interactions so i can gain some sense of notoriety.

i wish i liked drawing porn more, but i think theres a disconnect between me and other creators. im aware that a lot of people who are super into drawing furry nsfw get turned on by their drawings and maybe even jerk off during the process, and i could not be further from that experience. it immediately makes me not horny, and i lose all sense of what i would normally find sexy.

didnt mean to make this all doom and gloom but im just tired lmao, i keep putting expectations on myself and making myself miserable trying to meet them. if i post here going forward its gonna be for me, maybe i'll start writing erotica cause that drives me crazy and actually does get me horny lmao.


TLDR: i've kinda lost my spark for drawing furry porn and i wanna do things i actually enjoy going forward.