i spoke too soon. i trusted some people in a private friend group, someone did something without my consent and due to them doing that against my consent i do have to worry about my stalker threatening me or outright just having to move accounts again. before it happens

im actually genuinely tired. this is the 5th or 6th move. i actually want to die, not out of a need for death because i very much want to live, but because im just so exhausted that i dont think i could live safety without completely isolating myself from my income & my friends. being in forced solitude for my own safety is actually worse than death, i can understand isolating myself to recover from mental health, upon my own will or otherwise but doing it because a stalker wants me either dead or purposefully isolated genuinely feels entrapping

it was the same problem, too. someone sharing personal pictures or drawings without my permission, them being asked not to and being told "hey, you youve bene told to ask my permission in the first place so you did that fully knowing this could get me killed or assaulted, or worse. can you please apologize or help me fix this problem so im safe again?"
only gets me "fuck you" and "why should i be sorry when i did it because im trying to be a thoughtful friend, why cant you just accept a nice gesture?" and "i did something nice for you and you're so ungrateful! who cares if someones telling you theyll assault you?"

i dont even know if anyone else was doing this against my permission. i dont know if ill move accounts at all or just completely abandon social media entirely but if i stay here as i am, the threats to kill me will keep coming