Before doing so, I already know this will cause some controversy. Some may not like it, or think it's stupid...or even go and talk shit about me behind my back over it. Either way, it has given me peace of mind, so therefore I don't care about the opinions of others. And for those who do act immature over it, I can at least be happy in knowing that my low expectations were spot on and I was right yet again.

Anyways, on to the main event. I'm a hermaphrodite...at least in a psychological sense. Rather than explaining the reasoning yet again, I'll just copypasta from Skype, and just add in some additional details at the end.

Albeon: I have two separate and distinct personalities. One is a dominant male. He's loud, obnoxious, sex crazed, and doesn't like mushy stuff. Has a sarcastic sense of humor and a huge superiority complex. He's the type of personality all the masochistic little slave bottoms look for.

Albeon: The other is female. She's quiet and submissive and very much a bottom. She's patient and understanding and a good listener. She offers her opinion as opposed to throwing it in your face. She likes sex, but enjoys affection and cuddling. She loves kids, unlike the male who despises them, and actually wants to get pregnant and have some.

Albeon: The problem was that even though I knew they both existed, I treated them as different people in my head. I tried to bring each out when I wanted to. If I was single, and a dominant person struck my fancy, I tried to bring the female to the forefront to be his bitch...needless to say, the male did NOT approve. When there was a subby bottom that needed to be wooed, I used the male to dominate him into submission (bad pun, I know) until the female began to feel unloved and oversexed.

Albeon: So after several failed years of this, I did a lot of soul searching and self-exploration. The end result was a hermaphrodite. One who has aspects of both personalities. Neither is in control, neither is ignored. It's let me be more happy in the past month since I finally figured this out than at any other point in my life.

Those who know me know that I had the tendency to go through drastic mood swings. Sometimes I could be a full-on asshole and throw my "I'm better than you" attitude around constantly. Other times, I could listen well and give good advice without being judgemental. This is just one example, but it's part of the same thing. While I still have a little bit of swing back and forth depending on my stress level (see the rant at the top of this page) I have more control over myself and I seem to be better able to make and keep friends.

That's about all I had to say. Feel free to leave your opinions, be they compliment or constructive criticism. Any trollish comments will be removed promptly.

note: For those who I have purchased commissions from, continue as you were. This change will take effect upon future artwork

Update: Just wanted to apologize for the egregious use of improper terminology here. At the time I made this journal (over a decade ago now...damn) I wasn't aware that "non-binary" was a thing, much less the appropriate terminology for it. I'm leaving the journal up as a reference point to when I officially came out as non-binary, incorrect terms aside. I did want to come back and clarify things though, since being non-binary isn't just some fetishistic thing.