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18 years ago
These are the ramblings of a weed kitty.
Two weeks after posting last, a lot has happened. Heaven came and went while Sam visited. I spent so little time on the net and lazying around like I am used to. We kept busy best we could, because I wanted to show Sam as much as I could, and introduce her to the family and my extended family (friends, that is.)
Starting off that Thursday, we relaxed at home, cuddled for hours before actually going to sleep. On Friday, I went to work at 1 to 5 then came home to chaos (in a good way) as my complete family had gotten together, which is not something done in five or so years. It was great having everyone back together, we felt like a big, complete family again. Many smiles were made and many tears fell, but we all had a great time, and they all got to meet Sam.. whom they loved. My nieces and nephews.. Robert has gotten so tall, Ricky's voice is changing as he hits puberty, Autumn is as shy as ever, and Elizabeth has become a completely different person than I knew a few years ago when her and my brother's family moved to Wisconsin. My brother's were the same as always.. Gene the extreme conservative, Eric the bleeding heart liberal, and their discussion of 9/11 (which is.. 7 years late? so maybe the family has been broken up for more than seven years now? Wow, I hadn't realized that..) We ate, drank, and were merry for most of the night, up until 9 o'clock when they all decided to head back to their places; Gene's family to the hotel, and Eric's back home to Derry, NH. I so hope that we can do this again at the next big holiday.
We went to the movies, visited Kevin, and Lance/Christine that weekend as well, but nothing too big. The week of the first, we had a small get together on New Year's Eve, where Jenny and Zombie visited, Kevin had a few, and even Ej stopped by for a little while. There are few things as magical as kissing on midnight on New Year's Eve, my heart went a'flutter and it was as if.. she completed me at that moment. *Shrug* I don't know how else to put it, but now that she's gone back to Iowa, it feels as if that half of me was ripped out..
Anyway, I had work on Monday, Friday, and Saturday again that week.. We went to Haven, and Jen put some really great makeup on Sam. Although it wasn't necessarily her type of club, I believe that we had a good time together. I just wish that Patrick had been there to meet her, because I really expected him to be, but I heard later on from Preston that he went to Chicago to visit family for New Year's and probably wasn't back until after Tuesday. The day after we went shopping, visited Boston with Abe and Kev on Weds (which was also Kev's 19th B-day. Congrats again, man! One more year til you're a real man! :P ) We also went to the Weathervane while she was here, but unfortunately not the Old Salt at Hampton Beach, although I really wanted to take her and even get a hotel room for the night next to the beach, she kept saying no, no, no.. so we didn't. The day before she left, we went out to Alvin and the Chipmunk's at Chunky's in Haverhill, and both found it cute and funny. I felt it was very well done, although different from the original cartoons by far, considering they were real Chipmunks and not anthropomorphs.
The day that she left.. which was yesterday.. was very heartbreaking. I half-woke (because we were awake until about five AM and I had to get up in four hours..) for two hours cuddling her from behind, and fighting back the tears.. And watched her pack as I got ready for work. For the last hour all we could do was hold each other and cry, because I could not take her to the airport.
I was originally supposed to take her to the airport, but because of a few problems at work, I was not. It seems that my boss forgot that I had asked for that day off, so I switched with someone else, and that was okay. Stupidly, I should not have trusted this to work, because the day after we had decided to switch the days he was fired from work because he was caught stealing credit card information from the store. Oh, you're gonna laugh all of you, when you read this next sentence.. he was caught buying sixty dollars worth of pornography using a seventy year old woman's credit card, using the store's phone, and using his full name. I'm wondering if he <i>wanted</i> to get arrested for credit fraud (which I bet he did) or something. I mean, because.. <b>how stupid</b> can you be to do that? Honestly, if I were to have done such a thing, I would've gone to a payphone a city away and used a fake name like Shio, Fellay! But anyway, back to the topic, I went to work after a heartbreaking hour of crying.. and it hurts so much to remember those feelings.. but that's not where the story ends.
I went to work, albeit a few minutes late, and came in to see my boss standing behind the desk waiting for something. I whiped me face best of the tears, and said hello in the most cordial way I could, and walked behind the the front desk to put down my backpack and get out my work clothes and change. But, before I could even clock in, my boss Linda started bitching at me about "Why did you leave work for me again on Saturday?" I denied, but also asked why she had cut my hours again on last Monday, which I had to work 20 minutes over the closing time in order to finish cleaning up the place, and she said that I hadn't done enough work to earn those extra minutes. She said that if I had done my work, I would have been out by 5. I gritted my teeth and tried to bare it, and as I walked to the back of the store to change into my clothes in the bathroom I just snapped. Why should I take this fucking shit? I wasn't supposed to be here today, she knew why I didn't want to be there, she should have hired someone else to work with me, and I shouldn't have to take this shit from an ignorant person such as her! So I turned around about half way to the bathroom and calmly said, "You know, Linda.. I quit." She calmly said, "Fine, I'll have someone here in 10 minutes." I got pissed and don't remember how exactly the conversation went from then on, but I remember telling her off, saying "Linda, you're such a stupid fucking cunt.." and rubbed in her face that I had been using my laptop despite her telling me not to when she forced me to sign that "Discipline form" two weeks ago. She said that she knew, and asked me if I thought she was stupid, "Yeah! You are!" And she proceeded to call me a fuckface, bladdy blah blah.. I got my stuff and went back to the car and rushed home, expecting Tony to have taken Sam at 1:30 (only 10 minutes away) to the airport to get their early for the rush. I drove so fast, I skidded to the front of the house and noticed his car was gone, I rushed in and down the stairs to see if her bags were still there.. they were, and then I saw her sitting on my bed crying and writing notes. I collapsed into her, knocking her over onto the bed and kissed her. Told her what happened through many tears, then calmed down. I explained to her why and what happened, and how I realized that it was just <i>not right</i> that I couldn't take her to the airport.. that I <b><i>had to</b></i> be the one to do it.. So after a few hours we left (because I didn't think we needed to get their so early.) I won't go into detail what happened there, but waiting in the car as she waited for the plane to take off, I wished with all my heart that I would just slightly turn my head to the back of me and hopefully see her running back. It didn't happen.. but I have hope that she will be here soon.. and to stay.
... okay, I'll finish later, I'm getting too emotional to write anymore..
Starting off that Thursday, we relaxed at home, cuddled for hours before actually going to sleep. On Friday, I went to work at 1 to 5 then came home to chaos (in a good way) as my complete family had gotten together, which is not something done in five or so years. It was great having everyone back together, we felt like a big, complete family again. Many smiles were made and many tears fell, but we all had a great time, and they all got to meet Sam.. whom they loved. My nieces and nephews.. Robert has gotten so tall, Ricky's voice is changing as he hits puberty, Autumn is as shy as ever, and Elizabeth has become a completely different person than I knew a few years ago when her and my brother's family moved to Wisconsin. My brother's were the same as always.. Gene the extreme conservative, Eric the bleeding heart liberal, and their discussion of 9/11 (which is.. 7 years late? so maybe the family has been broken up for more than seven years now? Wow, I hadn't realized that..) We ate, drank, and were merry for most of the night, up until 9 o'clock when they all decided to head back to their places; Gene's family to the hotel, and Eric's back home to Derry, NH. I so hope that we can do this again at the next big holiday.
We went to the movies, visited Kevin, and Lance/Christine that weekend as well, but nothing too big. The week of the first, we had a small get together on New Year's Eve, where Jenny and Zombie visited, Kevin had a few, and even Ej stopped by for a little while. There are few things as magical as kissing on midnight on New Year's Eve, my heart went a'flutter and it was as if.. she completed me at that moment. *Shrug* I don't know how else to put it, but now that she's gone back to Iowa, it feels as if that half of me was ripped out..
Anyway, I had work on Monday, Friday, and Saturday again that week.. We went to Haven, and Jen put some really great makeup on Sam. Although it wasn't necessarily her type of club, I believe that we had a good time together. I just wish that Patrick had been there to meet her, because I really expected him to be, but I heard later on from Preston that he went to Chicago to visit family for New Year's and probably wasn't back until after Tuesday. The day after we went shopping, visited Boston with Abe and Kev on Weds (which was also Kev's 19th B-day. Congrats again, man! One more year til you're a real man! :P ) We also went to the Weathervane while she was here, but unfortunately not the Old Salt at Hampton Beach, although I really wanted to take her and even get a hotel room for the night next to the beach, she kept saying no, no, no.. so we didn't. The day before she left, we went out to Alvin and the Chipmunk's at Chunky's in Haverhill, and both found it cute and funny. I felt it was very well done, although different from the original cartoons by far, considering they were real Chipmunks and not anthropomorphs.
The day that she left.. which was yesterday.. was very heartbreaking. I half-woke (because we were awake until about five AM and I had to get up in four hours..) for two hours cuddling her from behind, and fighting back the tears.. And watched her pack as I got ready for work. For the last hour all we could do was hold each other and cry, because I could not take her to the airport.
I was originally supposed to take her to the airport, but because of a few problems at work, I was not. It seems that my boss forgot that I had asked for that day off, so I switched with someone else, and that was okay. Stupidly, I should not have trusted this to work, because the day after we had decided to switch the days he was fired from work because he was caught stealing credit card information from the store. Oh, you're gonna laugh all of you, when you read this next sentence.. he was caught buying sixty dollars worth of pornography using a seventy year old woman's credit card, using the store's phone, and using his full name. I'm wondering if he <i>wanted</i> to get arrested for credit fraud (which I bet he did) or something. I mean, because.. <b>how stupid</b> can you be to do that? Honestly, if I were to have done such a thing, I would've gone to a payphone a city away and used a fake name like Shio, Fellay! But anyway, back to the topic, I went to work after a heartbreaking hour of crying.. and it hurts so much to remember those feelings.. but that's not where the story ends.
I went to work, albeit a few minutes late, and came in to see my boss standing behind the desk waiting for something. I whiped me face best of the tears, and said hello in the most cordial way I could, and walked behind the the front desk to put down my backpack and get out my work clothes and change. But, before I could even clock in, my boss Linda started bitching at me about "Why did you leave work for me again on Saturday?" I denied, but also asked why she had cut my hours again on last Monday, which I had to work 20 minutes over the closing time in order to finish cleaning up the place, and she said that I hadn't done enough work to earn those extra minutes. She said that if I had done my work, I would have been out by 5. I gritted my teeth and tried to bare it, and as I walked to the back of the store to change into my clothes in the bathroom I just snapped. Why should I take this fucking shit? I wasn't supposed to be here today, she knew why I didn't want to be there, she should have hired someone else to work with me, and I shouldn't have to take this shit from an ignorant person such as her! So I turned around about half way to the bathroom and calmly said, "You know, Linda.. I quit." She calmly said, "Fine, I'll have someone here in 10 minutes." I got pissed and don't remember how exactly the conversation went from then on, but I remember telling her off, saying "Linda, you're such a stupid fucking cunt.." and rubbed in her face that I had been using my laptop despite her telling me not to when she forced me to sign that "Discipline form" two weeks ago. She said that she knew, and asked me if I thought she was stupid, "Yeah! You are!" And she proceeded to call me a fuckface, bladdy blah blah.. I got my stuff and went back to the car and rushed home, expecting Tony to have taken Sam at 1:30 (only 10 minutes away) to the airport to get their early for the rush. I drove so fast, I skidded to the front of the house and noticed his car was gone, I rushed in and down the stairs to see if her bags were still there.. they were, and then I saw her sitting on my bed crying and writing notes. I collapsed into her, knocking her over onto the bed and kissed her. Told her what happened through many tears, then calmed down. I explained to her why and what happened, and how I realized that it was just <i>not right</i> that I couldn't take her to the airport.. that I <b><i>had to</b></i> be the one to do it.. So after a few hours we left (because I didn't think we needed to get their so early.) I won't go into detail what happened there, but waiting in the car as she waited for the plane to take off, I wished with all my heart that I would just slightly turn my head to the back of me and hopefully see her running back. It didn't happen.. but I have hope that she will be here soon.. and to stay.
... okay, I'll finish later, I'm getting too emotional to write anymore..
