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Back to the grind
14 years ago
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And right back into another semester at school.
I wish I could say I was excited, wish I could find some motivation, some enthusiasm. But I have none left. 4 years of the same miserable thing over and over and over again, and I'm just so so spent.
So let me just... get through this and be done with it. Then I can stop hearing lectures about money, about financial aid, about rent bills I have to pay, about electricity I'm being charged for for no reason. I can go back to seeing movies whenever I want, having fun, walking my dogs somewhere that isn't loud and crowded with pitbull hating pedestrians. I can sleep in a room with a working smoke detector, can use an oven that doesn't leak gas, can go back to being distant from my neighbors, and not have to deal with small talk in the elevator.
*sigh* Some day...
I wish I could say I was excited, wish I could find some motivation, some enthusiasm. But I have none left. 4 years of the same miserable thing over and over and over again, and I'm just so so spent.
So let me just... get through this and be done with it. Then I can stop hearing lectures about money, about financial aid, about rent bills I have to pay, about electricity I'm being charged for for no reason. I can go back to seeing movies whenever I want, having fun, walking my dogs somewhere that isn't loud and crowded with pitbull hating pedestrians. I can sleep in a room with a working smoke detector, can use an oven that doesn't leak gas, can go back to being distant from my neighbors, and not have to deal with small talk in the elevator.
*sigh* Some day...
Though, this is only my fourth semester of classes, so I haven't been in for quite as long as you have.
But those conditions don't sound fun at all. Hope things get better for you real soon! :c
I know what it's like, maybe not into the adult world extent yet, but I do understand. It took me up until now to even be able to handle myself and that's only thanks to Moon, my best friend. I wasn't able to find anything in me like she has and still I'm learning to be strong. Despite all this and my often slide into depression. . . I have to find something to look forward to.
And I know you are stronger than me, Avy. And I know you can make it through this. Just hang in there, alright? It'll get better.