I am a loser....my father said well some things that well hurt me....he is drunk probably cause of the stress of court today but now postponed to thursday. He might go to jail...but now that he might have a few days left he now says hurtful things to me...like for instance....I have problem whispering cause of my well...allergy problem he comes up and says I shouldn't even be a marine cause I would get everyone killed I am like something that can get anyone killed. And when I asked my mother i need to get the sheets cleaned he says its probably cause I am in my room all day being in a CAVE. He has hurt me so much I don't feel like myself typing this....to be honest....I do feel like a loser....not trying hard enough for my father....when I look at myself....it gets me sick to my stomach...how much of a loser I am.

I'm a loser...don't matter what no one says...my mind is screaming over and over and over again and I just repeat it....I am a loser....I am a loser....I am a loser....I am a loser....I am a loser...I am a loser....I am a loser....a loser who should just die....it would free me....from being so much of a loser....cause I am a loser. I. AM. A. LOSER.