ok... i wanna vent. i cant fucking win. with work, i get walked ll over like a piee of trash! i work my fucking ass off and all i get is a cold shoulder by people who think that are better than me, and yet i out work, hang, and more determined to get the job done! yet when i needed to go on my break i get brushed off by 3 people! i even asked them if i could go before them bc i needed to one use the can, and throw up. i dont want people seeing me do that. (no im not balemic, i just cant hold down food that much anymore.) and yet people say the get sick or dont feel good the slack off. im about to pass the fuck out and im forcingmyself to pick up their slack, work even harder, and push myself to the breaking point.

all i got to say is that if these assholes dont start treating with some more respect i will not be the "perfect worker" they want. i can only take so much. and with the house i wont be able to go to FWA AGAIN!!!!!! How can i win when i cant even hold a promuse to some of my few friends left in my life. my phone cuts off people so i cant talk to them, finances are getting cut due to winter, and i have to break my word yet again. You know what i will never hold anyones word ever again, untill i see proof of it. i was promised to go panama, art school, promotion, pay raise, or even a better relationship. (on any front) and yet i have seen noneof that.

so i will say thia i wont make any more promises, or say anything to my name or anyones. sporry to be so mean but ive been let down, and ive let down people to many times. so i wont do it no longer.