all this time i try to talk to people and all i get is the cold shoulder, even from a few of my friends. even people who want to initiate a conversation just dont talk back after 3 messages. make my self esteem just boost through the roof if you ask me. no wonder i feel so alone. Thanks to you all.

and fuck all this talking to be friends shit, all you want to do is just to fuck and go. im no god damn toy for anyone's enjoyment! if i cant have some fun in my life why use me to get what you want?! is that all people think about is just with what their hormones tell them?! i swear if i could just separate my mind from my bodily needs, in which are so god damn primitive, i would be so much better for it. yea sure i sound like a damn hypocrite with all my favorites of porn on my profile, but i have no where else to get the sensation of what i "desire" so again i follow what the body says. the mind is consumed to the fleshes needs, wants, trivial bull shit.

damn im so angry... well what happens when someone gets beaten, abused, and broken for most of their existence. hatred... loathing... anger... lonely... all traits i have. i dont even know why i try to have friends... maybe to feel welcomed again. i dont know.