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11 years ago
MATERIAL LOCATOR! Before asking "where did you get ____?" check here ---> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7608239/ (If you still can't find it feel free to ask. I don't bite, I promise!) After a long time a other shop I'm finally back home for a long period of time. I will be much easier to get a hold of now so if you have any questions feel free to note me or hit me up on skype.
On a side note, I am sorry for being so hard to get a hold of the last month and I am sorry if I have made anyone feel uneasy. I am trying my best to kick it into full gear and get everyone their products in a timely fashion. Thank you for everyone who has been so patient and understanding and for those who haven't been so patient, your feelings are not without merit and I am sorry I have made you feel this way. I have had to stop and look at myself a lot over the last month and realize just how much of a ball of shit my current process is. Now I'm not bashing my quality but rather the time it takes me to finish a commission. It's not the commission that takes all of the time up in my day it's me worrying about it, or worrying about what one needs to be done first, worrying about this that or the other thing half of which do not even pertain to my work and then worrying to the point that I'm so stressed out I simply shut down and nothing gets done that day. This shit has to stop with me. I am not yelling at any of my commissioners, I am publicly yelling at myself. partially because people who have spent money on me deserve explanations for the delays and mostly because if I do I can no longer deny my problems as a human being. I want to be better, I want to make my friends and family proud, I want to make my commissioners happy they chose me, and I want to make myself a person who I like rather then the person who goes to bed every night cursing myself for all of the things that should have gotten done that day. I call bullshit on myself. Today is a new day and while I know I can't fix all of my flaws over night, I'm done with my own bullshit. I will be in my shop all day cleaning it up and then starting production as it should be and working till its time for bed.
Thank you to everyone who took the time to read this,
~Keeatah
On a side note, I am sorry for being so hard to get a hold of the last month and I am sorry if I have made anyone feel uneasy. I am trying my best to kick it into full gear and get everyone their products in a timely fashion. Thank you for everyone who has been so patient and understanding and for those who haven't been so patient, your feelings are not without merit and I am sorry I have made you feel this way. I have had to stop and look at myself a lot over the last month and realize just how much of a ball of shit my current process is. Now I'm not bashing my quality but rather the time it takes me to finish a commission. It's not the commission that takes all of the time up in my day it's me worrying about it, or worrying about what one needs to be done first, worrying about this that or the other thing half of which do not even pertain to my work and then worrying to the point that I'm so stressed out I simply shut down and nothing gets done that day. This shit has to stop with me. I am not yelling at any of my commissioners, I am publicly yelling at myself. partially because people who have spent money on me deserve explanations for the delays and mostly because if I do I can no longer deny my problems as a human being. I want to be better, I want to make my friends and family proud, I want to make my commissioners happy they chose me, and I want to make myself a person who I like rather then the person who goes to bed every night cursing myself for all of the things that should have gotten done that day. I call bullshit on myself. Today is a new day and while I know I can't fix all of my flaws over night, I'm done with my own bullshit. I will be in my shop all day cleaning it up and then starting production as it should be and working till its time for bed.
Thank you to everyone who took the time to read this,
~Keeatah
Take the time you need to get everything in order sweets, we all love you to pieces
..oops..I ate them all..
You're not alone. I think this happens to a lot of us.
The only thing I've found so far that helps is Trello. I can break down a project into tiny little steps and make a checklist out of it. It's way easier for me to go "oh, I just have to do this one little step" even if I don't feel like it, and then reward myself with a half hour of whatever I do feel like doing (or keep going if I feel like it) and then on to the next tiny little step. It also stops me from thinking about all the other things, because as long as they're written down on there, I don't have to worry that I'll forget them.
If you find anything that helps you, let us know!
I can see how livestreaming would help though! Thanks for the tip!
*Hugs back* You're welcome! I wish you good luck in straightening out your process. Having to wrestle our brains into submission can be quite a challenge. I've talked to a number of other artists who have similar problems and a bizarre array of coping strategies to match. Sometimes I think we put up a front so we seem cheerful and that there aren't any problems, even when we're struggling and screaming inside, because we don't want to alienate others or seem "whiny". But don't let that fool you into thinking you're the only one who has these problems.
You have breakdowns like everyone else, and you are entitled for you to get time for yourself together for you first and foremost.
We gotcha Keetah. Just do well for yourself and regardless, we still loves you.
Keep going Keetah~
SO.
I love you a bunch. Like holy shit, wow.
Don't forget you're loved and cared for. <3 We've got your back in this.
I understand shit piles up and you get discouraged with yourself. I'm still struggling with this. I have a lot on my Que and I found myself sitting around for a month at the beginning of the year, upset with myself.
I pulled myself up like you're doing now and got back to work. I know your commissioners will understand. Life of an artist is tough. Especially if you have people hounding you. :(
I hope you pull through this, hunny. <3 <3 <3 <3 I will always admire you, even in your down-times.
If you need to vent or just have someone pick on to make ya feel better. :3 You have my number and skype, lovely.
Chin up, babe. U w U You got dis.
Life is like a Book, each day is a new page written. And one day you hope, that book will earn its place on the shelf.