As a kid I always wanted to be different. If I knew how different I really am, I wouldn't have tried so hard to be different. I'm finding that I'm almost got all personality traits some of them are social anxiety, depression, paranoia, and when I have too much caffeine a touch of skit-o. No one of them is over powering on a daily basis, some show their ugly heads now and again.

To me, madness is when you've got too many conflicting thought and feelings that can't be sorted out. I have to let them pass like bad storms, and hide from the world in a hope that I don't do something stupid again that will destroy more of my life.

So what madness is it I have today. I'm thinking it might be rage, ego, and grandeur. I feel like I'm brilliant, a yogi bear complex, yet I'm stuck with low brow shitpumps (turn yesterday's good food into today's flushables). The icing on the cake is that there is a disconnect between what I'm thinking and putting it into words to express it. The nail in the coffin is that if I could, who would listen. Paranoia says that if I do put out a book or start speaking up, the only one's who will listen will be the real ones in charge and I'll be put down before people know anything about my efforts. .... madness yes?

So let me just put the thoughts out there in rough form. The helpful are punish, the world is being over populated by the stupid, the world is being destroyed by those in charge, and we the people have been enslaved but no one cares since they have their starbucks and game of throwns, and doing anything is just too much effort. Finally, one person can't change the world.

So what? Use a sin to motivate people so the end result will be more of the same but another person pulling the reins? Maybe it's to just keep trying the proper way and go quietly into the night like I have been.

I'm sure my words will be misunderstood, but let me just speak of the tip of the iceberg. All the sins seem to share one thing in common. Don't cause hate in others and don't hate as well, because what you bring is where you go. Hate only brings hell and demons, and it's no way to live. We are not better or worse, just different, say please and thank you, and forgive people for just being human. He who withholds information sees himself as your new master; therefore, knowledge must flow. Learn a skill of something you use on a daily, weekly, monthly, or yearly basis. Learn to teach others what you know, and maybe, just maybe we won't wipe ourselves out over over stupid black Friday sales items.

Madness done! I'm off ... physically, not just mentally *smirks stupidly*