I'm not sure why I've started leaving journals here.... At least with the frequency that I have been doing so. Maybe it's because I want it seen, since I won't actually say anything on the subject directly.

Just tired of failing. Or I guess more accurately, tired of not succeeding. I want things to go well but they don't. And I'm no help to the matter anyway so... yeah. I haven't really been an artist (and the little I did before is very simple stuff, curiousity points to either SA or DA with same user name). So having someone else not feeling good about drawing doesn't have me have anything good to say. Just continue not helping...
I'd take myself away from it all if I could know what the reprecussions would be, would it be worth it to walk away? Right now, no, maybe later, though I don't want to walk away, I just feel staying won't help, never did regardless of what was said before. Help from then is not help now which makes me useless.

Tomorrow will be a distracting day (part of it at least) then followed by more work later on (which is a good thing).

He just needs to remember cares about him. Will miss him, his art as an extension. He means everything so hopefully he can feel better.

Anyway... that's all there is to me... I'll find something to distract me later, for now, well I'll just continue the same.