The amount of support from people who had hardly known me at the time was immense. I never once expected for the people to be there when they were... I never realized how hard this would have been without anyone else there. I could very much be dead if it wasn't for the people who were willing to speak to me and let me sing my sorrows every night. One day I hope I can look back on this and remember every moment because without it all, I'd never be anymore than who I am now. It's the voice I hear from so many places around the world that keep me sane and help me pull through things I never thought I would... But the more I'm online, the more I find myself being dependent on such people but I think that's okay because sometimes they need me too. It's good to have friends in all sorts of places... cause you never know what'll happen or where you'll end up. I was so afraid of where I would end up but you...

You whispered to me that it would be just fine. Even when you weren't certain of the outcome, you still were there to tell me it was going to be okay and that as long as I keep breathing, I'll never stop being. Everything we had been through had came together in that moment where you held me so close from so far away, yet I felt it. I know you know that I need this part of you with me and I have wishes but maybe I should stop wishing and work with what we got. I need to get out of Houston and go somewhere, anywhere else. There is a world out there and I'd rather get stuck and die anywhere else but here-- to prove to myself that I'm the one calling the shots. You always told me not to be so abrasive revolutionary... A resilient temperamental bird against the authorities I wish to improve-- as if I know any better. I know that will be the death of me. If there is anyone who can save me from that, it's you and I know you have a life to live and I don't want to slow you down but this indecisiveness is going to be a problem, just as always.

It's been 18 Days since I was kicked out of my home. Each one of those days I've made sure to talk to someone. I refuse to let myself be alone as much as I was... I never end up in good places when I'm like that and now that I know, it's been amazing. I've helped people through things and continued relationships and helped bare the pain of what life can bring unexpectedly. I have made new friends and met more people who are willing to listen to my hurt and pain that I've been so resistant to share. Here I am with a laugh remembering things that happened earlier today. I'm glad I became who I am and I'm excited to see who I will become later down the line. I hope it's someone good because I think the world needs more people like that. I've left a lot in the past and I am glad I did. People change and I use to hate change but now it's the greatest thing.

Love is my muse.
Honesty is my passion.
Time is my ally.

I hope I am yours,
Even just for a little while.