Hey, I've kinda been around, but things are pretty messed up right now and It's been really hard for me to get my head in it. I'm struggling pretty bad. It's been calls and family visits and appointments all the last month and now...

Well for starters, My mom's suffering from a fever that hasn't gone away in over a week now and already spent 4 nights in the hospital only to not be able to figure out what is causing, and the antibotics don't seem to be having any effect.

My brother is missing somewhere in AZ, homeless, no ones been able to reach him, and I worry with his mental state the way it has been after his double relapse with bad bad drug abuse. He really shouldn't be out on his own, but it's out of everyone's hands now. So many things could happen to him, I'm trying to keep it out of my head.

and lastly, Last night our friend, Joey age 16, Who is our friend's son,the mechanic we work with from time to time at the shop, (More like been family to us.) Was hit on his quad by an elderly lady going 70MPH. He's fucked up really really bad and I'm trying my best to keep it togeather right now and send what positive energy I can that way, but it's not looking good at all. He has a broken leg, Factured spine, His jaw is smashed in, and the skin has been torn away from his back, and they can't opperate on any of it with his back in this condition. It's real bad. I can't even...

So like, y-yeah. I really gotta get work done because ontop of all this, I'm still gonna need money to pay for power and food and it's already getting close to that time, But i've been unable to finish anything, (not for lack of trying and trying) It's giving me hell and fighting me the whole way. I'm gonna keep trying but I don't think i'm gonna be able to around much till some of these things have passed.