Sorry about my last post. I have been feeling really out of it and lonely since the passing of my partner. Some things happened that triggered some really strong feelings and I let them overtake me.

Im usually thicker skinned than this. And Im not sure why it effected me the way it did. I guess you just get excited about some things and then you end up fumbling the whole situation and it weighed heavy on me.

It isnt anybodies fault but my own. So, it is what it is.

Thank you to all the people who contacted me and watched out for me. You all know who you are and if you dont, then just remember its you. The ones who read these journals.

Im off to work.