Happy 2018 everyone. I hope this coming year is better than your last.

I hope to have a happy 2018 too. I dont really have a new years resolution, but there are a few things Id like. Id like to not feel like a burden. Id like to not feel ignored. Id like to feel appreciated.

Nobody knows what my thought process or thoughts have been this last year. I have considered many times moving on to whatever there is after this. I feel like this last year I lost so much and I dont know why I stay here sometimes. I really dont.

Tonight i cried. Because there are moments I had in 2017 that I will never have again. The future for me is full of fear. I try making friends but many times I feel like im just not appreciated. I know, maybe this is my depression or anxiety talking, but its still how i feel.

To me, im pretty important, so i feel that if I take the time to send a message or tell others that I appreciate them, maybe a response would be cool. When that doesnt happen, I feel like I dont really have a place here. I feel like I am forgotten or unwanted. I feel that way alot.

I care alot. About alot of people, but I tend to overlook myself. I feel if I just focus on me, then I will become a villain. Im afraid of being the bad guy.

Im very close to giving up on some things. Ill just stop messaging those that dont respond. Stop caring for those that dont return the feeling. Its nothing personal. I just cant anymore. I dont like feeling like I am the problem.

Heh, hope your 2018 is super.