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6 years ago
Hey.
There's a lot to say.
I'm sorry for what I did, or rather, what I didn't do. Taking a commission and then not doing it for three years is a shit thing to do, any way you cut it. Every time I thought "Time to do this" I thought about how long it had already been and the guilt and weight of it all just. Stopped me again. And again. Please believe me, it was never, ever my intention to "take it and run." It just, either for real or in my head, grew into a large, disgusting, horrible anxiety monster... which isn't a valid excuse
I've refunded both but that doesn't change those three years much. I'm not taking commissions again.
Also, I wasn't really acting like myself before. When I started this account I worried people I knew would find out and stuff, so I presented myself as anonymously as I could. Now things are different... my friends all know I'm a silly balloon and still love me... too bad I'm the only one. So what I want now is kind of the opposite of how it started, to not take commissions and just be around. If I'm wanted.
There's a lot to say.
I'm sorry for what I did, or rather, what I didn't do. Taking a commission and then not doing it for three years is a shit thing to do, any way you cut it. Every time I thought "Time to do this" I thought about how long it had already been and the guilt and weight of it all just. Stopped me again. And again. Please believe me, it was never, ever my intention to "take it and run." It just, either for real or in my head, grew into a large, disgusting, horrible anxiety monster... which isn't a valid excuse
I've refunded both but that doesn't change those three years much. I'm not taking commissions again.
Also, I wasn't really acting like myself before. When I started this account I worried people I knew would find out and stuff, so I presented myself as anonymously as I could. Now things are different... my friends all know I'm a silly balloon and still love me... too bad I'm the only one. So what I want now is kind of the opposite of how it started, to not take commissions and just be around. If I'm wanted.
Hope your doing well!!
Anxiety is a horrible monster and I hope you can always overcome it!
I still love the Drifloon piece and would be happy to chat sometime if you're looking for new folks.
That kind of paralysis that stops you from doing things you need to do, I think a lot of people would feel it. I guess as long as your clients understand, things should be fine. Don't beat yourself up too much~
If commissions burn you out I think it's fine for you to not take em
I well know the effects of anxiety by myself, I've delayed commissions too for no reason and that has caused me many problems in the past. Procrastination and unsecurity become a hard wall to break, sadly responsibilities are first and you can't avoid them for too long TwT
I would not recommend you to close commissions forever. Just return whenever you feel motivated and ready to work again. But... that"s just my.opinion. :P
Hope you be doing better now and keep making more puffy art that everyone loves :)
I'm either case, I'm glad to see you're back! Your work's extremely solid, so I guess a follow might be worth giving, now that you're alive.
While I don't know if you caught my refund or not, cause I dont see it in my paypal, I can provide more details if ye need, or even just take a raincheck for the future XD It's not that big of a deal I suppose.
Anyway, hope you are well, and look forward to see you a'round' <3