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Just a life-update... and a bit of a warning.
6 years ago
So, if you know me well enough you'll know that some really heinous shit has happened.
Protip: If you're on ADHD medication, make sure the dosage isn't too high, and for fuck's sake don't abuse cannabis.
I am a major pot-head, having toked on a regular basis for the last while.
But, see, thing is, there's something called "drug induced psychosis."
I seem to have ended up toking myself psychotic.
Yes, I am getting proper treatment, and my medication has been adjusted. But to be honest the last month has been rather hellish because the delusions that came with it were so very convincing and as much as hindsight is telling me that they were just delusions, it was convincing enough, and preying on my insecurities such that I literally believed that things were happening that just weren't.
Am I ashamed of saying this? No. I'm saying it because I know that there are other pot-heads that follow me, and also to be honest about what I've been dealing with.
Should I say this? Maybe not... because I know there are going to be assholes and pricks out there that will use this as justification to treat me as lesser. I am fully aware of the potential consequences of being open about what's happened (and the people that would use this to dehumanize and ridicule me are nothing more than assholes and pricks... so I really don't give a good god damn about what they think of me anyway.)
There's nothing wrong with admitting you have a problem. And for a time, my use of cannabis /was/ becoming a problem... a problem that my brain just couldn't handle and I ended up losing my mind as a result.
The thing about this is... this can be healed by changing my medication and not being such a pot-head. Though if there's a deeper issue at play, at least we're at the point where tests can uncover it.
I had a wake-up call though... and not everyone has the luck to have that. So if you know of someone that you suspect may be suffering from a drug-induced psychotic break from reality, just be there for them. Chances are they're suffering through some pretty hardcore scary shit and having the support of people that care can do wonders to help them heal.
It won't be easy, I'm sure of that much at least... but once you recognize what's going on, it gets easier to be there for them. And people in this sort of situation do need your help. This shit is terrifying enough as is... doing it alone? That makes it even harder.
Protip: If you're on ADHD medication, make sure the dosage isn't too high, and for fuck's sake don't abuse cannabis.
I am a major pot-head, having toked on a regular basis for the last while.
But, see, thing is, there's something called "drug induced psychosis."
I seem to have ended up toking myself psychotic.
Yes, I am getting proper treatment, and my medication has been adjusted. But to be honest the last month has been rather hellish because the delusions that came with it were so very convincing and as much as hindsight is telling me that they were just delusions, it was convincing enough, and preying on my insecurities such that I literally believed that things were happening that just weren't.
Am I ashamed of saying this? No. I'm saying it because I know that there are other pot-heads that follow me, and also to be honest about what I've been dealing with.
Should I say this? Maybe not... because I know there are going to be assholes and pricks out there that will use this as justification to treat me as lesser. I am fully aware of the potential consequences of being open about what's happened (and the people that would use this to dehumanize and ridicule me are nothing more than assholes and pricks... so I really don't give a good god damn about what they think of me anyway.)
There's nothing wrong with admitting you have a problem. And for a time, my use of cannabis /was/ becoming a problem... a problem that my brain just couldn't handle and I ended up losing my mind as a result.
The thing about this is... this can be healed by changing my medication and not being such a pot-head. Though if there's a deeper issue at play, at least we're at the point where tests can uncover it.
I had a wake-up call though... and not everyone has the luck to have that. So if you know of someone that you suspect may be suffering from a drug-induced psychotic break from reality, just be there for them. Chances are they're suffering through some pretty hardcore scary shit and having the support of people that care can do wonders to help them heal.
It won't be easy, I'm sure of that much at least... but once you recognize what's going on, it gets easier to be there for them. And people in this sort of situation do need your help. This shit is terrifying enough as is... doing it alone? That makes it even harder.
Otter
~sergeant
For what it's worth I don't think of you as lesser for any of this. There are definitely limits to the enjoyment of recreational cannabis just as much as there are limits to the enjoyment of booze.
IHaveHeadCrabs
~ihaveheadcrabs
If you're bipolar or have any kind of manic or related disorder, cannabis can have a major affect on it. Of the copious amounts of drugs I've done, cannabis was the worst and only one that has ever caused an actual manic episode for me. One thing I really don't like about weed is how lazy and unmotivated people often become on it as it seems to become a lifestyle for many. It is important to always challenge your self and deal with pain, rather then avoid it.
