And it really doesn't feel like that at all. It still really feels like yesterday. But it's already been a year since I lost my husky and I've been playing the whole day from last year in my head all day. It really only got bad towards the end of work, but that was because it started to slow down and I had time to think on something other than work. Along with being tired now really doesn't help the situation either. And even though I'm as tired as I am after work I just don't want to try going to sleep. In part because I know if I try and go to sleep I'll just think more and keep picturing that morning in my head. And even if there wasn't anything that I could have done, I still blame myself for everything and that I couldn't save him. But it's because of how much he meant to me and he was always my best buddy and was there with me through everything. This is still one of those things where I feel like no matter how much time goes by I'm still really going to miss him and I'm even trying not to cry just typing this up. I still keep saying that it would have been great of Nanaki and Kiba could have met, because it would have been hilarious. And even though I miss him and I'm going to keep missing him I need to give Kiba a good life. I know there's no way I can do everything for him like I did with Nanaki, but that's because of a lot of circumstances.

I miss you bud and I wish you were still here.