Today we gathered with my universty friends, I had some little of mead, we were talking about all sorts of things, and when I was explaining I thing about a job, I told that since we live in society we have to correspond standarts, an as example said "... like if, for example, I would want my haid to be pink, I wouldnt do that because of standarts, same applyes here I just make it more obviouse by using example", one girl responded "Hah, you!? Oh now I wanna see you with pink hair and a bow, mark my words I'll fine a way to do so!". Holy fuck she didn't know how much I want that... been treated like a little girl... in a dress and with pink hair... I'm very good at controling emotions, otherwise I would be petrified, blushing at this phrase *blushes*
Recently at work I was told that I must check in as liable for military service (EVERY man is Russia must do so), cz when mooving out of my city I checked out of my military enlistment office and was expected to check here, but I didn't, because you know... I don't want to be taken to fucking war (which I am all against ofc and think we must leave Ukrainian pepole alone and I concider Russian goverment illegitimate and ocupaied by criminals), so I didn't want to check in so that military did know that I exist. But now I must do so cz of work, and even tho they can't emmm. take me, I am university student and IT worker as well (both are creteria that forbids forcing a man to serve, everyone else go to war or go to prison). But law in Russia is... ehh... let's say vage. It doesn't mettter as much if it touches human rights. Like... you can protest ON PAPER, but google up what police is doing to us at protests. So I'm very afraid to go tomorrow... but heh... I asked that girl if she would just go with me as company, as extra person to worry about, as witness if there's gonna be some ideas to do crimes against my rights. MB I'm to paranoid...
She agreed after I said that I'd let her dye my hair pink and call me by any girl name if she'd just go there with me. She probably would'ev agreed to even without that, but I secretly have a BIG hope that she'll bring it up at some point...
hope I survive tomorrow
I have many thoughts on trying to buy some cheap graphic tablet and trying to draw if I do survive... I'm not an artist... like at all, but I want to try it. Draw my margay fursona... Star, to just say thank again. Hm.. should start with something easy tho, Hoodwink from dota? Sounds good, wouldnt be a shame to draw her too bad :D
Ok, I'll throw you some music again, it's more of a... lonely thinking of life mood. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CCEmoXG3pqs