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a year ago
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If someone lives out of Russia, I'd like to just give a picture of how it is here at least from my perspective.
Putin came to power in 2000s, in democracy you can only be president for only 8 years then step out. But my country is occuped by a gang of mobsters, Putin is not a president, he is just a mafia boss, they hold as all hostage, all TV is non stop propiganda. People got used to old TV, where all info was tripple checked before being told. But not TV translates endless lies and gets into the internet. I am currently using VPN to be able to access Furaffinity. Goverment bans EVERYTHING they do not have controll over. Now they are banning youtube, video plays for 15-20 seconds then you get endless loading. They inprison everyone who dears to unite people, if they are still reaching out even from prison or just have too much influence, they kill. May be you've heard about Navalniy, but he is just one of thousends of leaders who where killed, just most popular.
"So what? Politics shmolitics, dirty sport, what's it to you?"
After sanctions, prices for evenything just doubled, yes we have everything still, but if you are not making good money, you can now bearaly survive. Just the other day I saw job ofer on clothing shop, they need stuff, the ofer is 25k rubles per mounth. It is currently about 290$. Before taxes. For my little appartment I pay 15k rubles (rent + utilities). Then you have 10k for food and clothing? I am a junior programmer with 1 year of experience and I get payed 60k rubles. I can live, even tho every day I struggle a lot, I really really want to quit every day, but it's mangable. I do anourmous work to just... survive, my mental is so fucked but I need to keep it together to survive. Besides complitely ruined economy and hypnotyzed into savage bloodthirsty animals parents it's monilization I have to worry about. Can you even imagine living for years in fear of geting sent to war of prison? It is litteraly that. State picks you and say "GO DIE IN UKRAIN" if you disagree - you are criminal, "Article 328 of the Criminal Code of the Russian Federation" from 6 mounths to two years of prison. And also you are banned from registating as selfemploied and samy banned from working. How? Well, if someone is to hire you, they will have to pay 400k to half a million for giving you any job. So, yes, you are basicaly die at war, or in the street when winter hits, because you can not make any money leagaly.
Any day it can happen to me, or any of my male friends, it can happen to my boyfriend or classmate or anyone. It is pretty traumatizing to hear how
acquaintance of an acquaintance of my dad returned to his family in coffin.
Imagine being abdl in this mess. I want to be infantle, I want to be carless, stupid, carefree. And I want someone to take care of me. But in that kind of hell everybody for themselves. Me too. I'm on survivle mode for last 5 years. And I'm losing it. But I know, that no one it going to catch me if I fall.
Yes, even my boyfriend, my Doe. This femboy is an adult baby himself, not in a way I am, but like for real. I never got any love from my parents, no care. He got overprotected, too much care. So I don't trust in him. He is too careless, even when we play dota, he is not thinking with head. He can not take care for himself I feel like. Hope I am wrong.
So all my life I feel like I'm sinking in the middle of the ocean after plane crash. Everyone is sinking, no hope of getting any help. If you don't know, panicking sinking person is increadably dangerous, they are going to drown you first, not letting you help them. Sinking person just push the other one down with all available strangths. So... I sink, but everyone around is a deathtrap, I am afraid to even attempt to get close in plea for help. Burning parts of a plane are crushing around, I can see how it kills people around me. I just keep trying to live, I do not know why even try? I can see there is not chance to survive this. But I just keep on trying purely because of my basic animal instincts.
I will soon run out of strengths and drown. I just keep hoping for miracle.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gPUP52qMVk
Putin came to power in 2000s, in democracy you can only be president for only 8 years then step out. But my country is occuped by a gang of mobsters, Putin is not a president, he is just a mafia boss, they hold as all hostage, all TV is non stop propiganda. People got used to old TV, where all info was tripple checked before being told. But not TV translates endless lies and gets into the internet. I am currently using VPN to be able to access Furaffinity. Goverment bans EVERYTHING they do not have controll over. Now they are banning youtube, video plays for 15-20 seconds then you get endless loading. They inprison everyone who dears to unite people, if they are still reaching out even from prison or just have too much influence, they kill. May be you've heard about Navalniy, but he is just one of thousends of leaders who where killed, just most popular.
"So what? Politics shmolitics, dirty sport, what's it to you?"
After sanctions, prices for evenything just doubled, yes we have everything still, but if you are not making good money, you can now bearaly survive. Just the other day I saw job ofer on clothing shop, they need stuff, the ofer is 25k rubles per mounth. It is currently about 290$. Before taxes. For my little appartment I pay 15k rubles (rent + utilities). Then you have 10k for food and clothing? I am a junior programmer with 1 year of experience and I get payed 60k rubles. I can live, even tho every day I struggle a lot, I really really want to quit every day, but it's mangable. I do anourmous work to just... survive, my mental is so fucked but I need to keep it together to survive. Besides complitely ruined economy and hypnotyzed into savage bloodthirsty animals parents it's monilization I have to worry about. Can you even imagine living for years in fear of geting sent to war of prison? It is litteraly that. State picks you and say "GO DIE IN UKRAIN" if you disagree - you are criminal, "Article 328 of the Criminal Code of the Russian Federation" from 6 mounths to two years of prison. And also you are banned from registating as selfemploied and samy banned from working. How? Well, if someone is to hire you, they will have to pay 400k to half a million for giving you any job. So, yes, you are basicaly die at war, or in the street when winter hits, because you can not make any money leagaly.
Any day it can happen to me, or any of my male friends, it can happen to my boyfriend or classmate or anyone. It is pretty traumatizing to hear how
acquaintance of an acquaintance of my dad returned to his family in coffin.
Imagine being abdl in this mess. I want to be infantle, I want to be carless, stupid, carefree. And I want someone to take care of me. But in that kind of hell everybody for themselves. Me too. I'm on survivle mode for last 5 years. And I'm losing it. But I know, that no one it going to catch me if I fall.
Yes, even my boyfriend, my Doe. This femboy is an adult baby himself, not in a way I am, but like for real. I never got any love from my parents, no care. He got overprotected, too much care. So I don't trust in him. He is too careless, even when we play dota, he is not thinking with head. He can not take care for himself I feel like. Hope I am wrong.
So all my life I feel like I'm sinking in the middle of the ocean after plane crash. Everyone is sinking, no hope of getting any help. If you don't know, panicking sinking person is increadably dangerous, they are going to drown you first, not letting you help them. Sinking person just push the other one down with all available strangths. So... I sink, but everyone around is a deathtrap, I am afraid to even attempt to get close in plea for help. Burning parts of a plane are crushing around, I can see how it kills people around me. I just keep trying to live, I do not know why even try? I can see there is not chance to survive this. But I just keep on trying purely because of my basic animal instincts.
I will soon run out of strengths and drown. I just keep hoping for miracle.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gPUP52qMVk
