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2 years ago
No, brain, can I just go to sleep without of writing another journal!? No? Fine...
Well, today was great! I finally got to sleep as long as I please, didn't have anything to do, a reward for a long distance run. Well, tactically... I have to do some programming that I promised at exams. Like "Oh, this little flaw? It's pretty easy to manage, just have to *programming shit*" so examinaitor understood that I have enough knowledge, but answered with "I'll give you your 5 (like A in Russia, 2 - D, 3 - C, 4 - B, 5 - A) but if you promise to fix this flaw we found and email me with the result" what was I supposed to say!? "OH HEEEELL NO!"?
But fuck everything I don't have a freaking heartburn anymore, after I gone "fuck everything" mode. I don't want it back, so, trying to ignore the fact that I'm not actually done. Oh I'm done! You didn't say WHEN am I supposed to correct this stuff. So, later, later ok?
And since I'm alone in a room, I can just lock myself in and play hairstyle with the stuff I bought earlier, hair clips with pink girly bow and hair scrunchie. I'm terribly disappointed on how bad I do it... would be cool if someone could care about my hair... V said I have a beautiful thick hair. But he wouldn't even brush it. "ooooh love it, even a bit envy about it...
Would you like to brush it? Make bunches or just mess with it all you want?
No, no I can't I won't sorry"
Like... it's not like diapers change cmon! What's so bad about it!? You sucked my dick! I sucked your dick!!! WE WHERE BOYFRIENDS AND YOU DON'T WANT TO MESS WITH MY HAIR CZ WHAT!? IT'S ABDL THEAMED!? THAT'S IT!? AAAAAAHHH!!!!!
So, looks like random baby jokes is gonna be the biggest I'm getting! Hair situation wasn't today tho...
Today I was just chilling. Oh yeah I kinda stumbled on some word as we where playing dota today and just gone "fuck everything" mode and started baby talking on V! Like "... so as we reach level 5 we must strike at the very moment, just disable him and redufff... fif almoh... Baaa! Goo hit badys WEEE! PUF PUF PLAAA-LA!" The silence was my answer and also I missed everything and failed our attack V wasn't happy XD
Especially since I always was very good at dota, like "I'm gonna be at cybersports mum!" level... yeh, mum don't give a shit about what you want, go do your homework son. But 5300 is pretty high mmr actually, so V is more used to me been the best of the best players on map, and nowadays I'm just fooling around even tho sometimes old habits kicks in like at the moment where I started building an attack plan, but the second I understand what I'm doing, "fuck everything" mode XD I'm not leading anyone, I'm not carrying the game, I'm just a baby squirrel running around, baby talking, throwing nuts at enemies sometimes XD
And it does feel better! It's like a form of therapy! I'm just training myself to let go, just do what I want and not what needs to be done. I let V be in charge even tho he is much less skilled player, whatever, I get to be leaded somewhere, just do as I told like a well behaved baby. Oh and he knows now that he can make me do anything he wants by going "You are a naughty brat!" mode.
I don't know if I like that he abuses it now. Like we get in an argument about any subject. Like recently... it was about alcohol. I'm not anti alcohol guy, I just drink VARY RARELY, but I do it sometimes. So I was trying to prove that crazy anti alcohol propaganda is awful. You lie about how bad it is and what does it cause, there we have a full of shit propaganda video that shows up at schools alot, and everyone saw it. It starts with "When a single drop of alcohol finds it's way into your body eretrocytes stick together to form blood clots..." and CMON Alcohol dilutes the blood! Yes alcoholic can have blood clots but because of damaged health, not because of immediate effects of alcohol!!!
My point is that you should put truthful info about everything! There also was bullshit about beer "Phytoestrogens are contained in beer in huge quantities, when a man drinks beer, he begins to turn into a woman" but in video where used Russian disparaging word for woman "Баба", yes, "Baba" literally like that, it's an assault to call a man like that in Russia.
Where was I... so in fact, phytoestrogens and estrogens are different biologically! You can't become a woman by drinking fucking beer, that must be obvious! But no. They make such a fool of us, that one guy who's dream is to become a femboy... DRINKS A LOT OF BEER AND THINKING THAT WILL MAKE HIM MORE OF A FEMBOY!!!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOUR LOGIC HOW DO YOU BELIEVE THIS SHIT!?
SO, I'm definitely winning argument with facts, with pulling out links to accredited scientific researches.
And V just goes "Shush! If I here one more word from you, naughty butt, I'll MAKE YOU learn this video by heart and you will be describing me in all details how much damage can one drop of alcohol do! Understood!?
- Uhum...
- Good, and don't you dare contradict grownups again!"
Isn't it fucked up that he is doing it only to get what he wanted? I don't know, sounds like a dream to be talked to like that irl! And he really nails the mommy tone!
Yeah and it was started from that HE'S DOING THINGS LIKE THAT IN DOTA NOW, even if I know that he's command is bad and we should totally do other thing... pfff, who gives a crap that I have twice your mmr if you can just do mama tone and make the little smartass shut up? That's it, no reason to listen to arguments now...
I just wish I could have someone like me, who knows ABDL and isn't so disgusted by it. Someone like me... I know what song am I gonna put today!
https://youtu.be/LCy19JV7t9o
Well, today was great! I finally got to sleep as long as I please, didn't have anything to do, a reward for a long distance run. Well, tactically... I have to do some programming that I promised at exams. Like "Oh, this little flaw? It's pretty easy to manage, just have to *programming shit*" so examinaitor understood that I have enough knowledge, but answered with "I'll give you your 5 (like A in Russia, 2 - D, 3 - C, 4 - B, 5 - A) but if you promise to fix this flaw we found and email me with the result" what was I supposed to say!? "OH HEEEELL NO!"?
But fuck everything I don't have a freaking heartburn anymore, after I gone "fuck everything" mode. I don't want it back, so, trying to ignore the fact that I'm not actually done. Oh I'm done! You didn't say WHEN am I supposed to correct this stuff. So, later, later ok?
And since I'm alone in a room, I can just lock myself in and play hairstyle with the stuff I bought earlier, hair clips with pink girly bow and hair scrunchie. I'm terribly disappointed on how bad I do it... would be cool if someone could care about my hair... V said I have a beautiful thick hair. But he wouldn't even brush it. "ooooh love it, even a bit envy about it...
Would you like to brush it? Make bunches or just mess with it all you want?
No, no I can't I won't sorry"
Like... it's not like diapers change cmon! What's so bad about it!? You sucked my dick! I sucked your dick!!! WE WHERE BOYFRIENDS AND YOU DON'T WANT TO MESS WITH MY HAIR CZ WHAT!? IT'S ABDL THEAMED!? THAT'S IT!? AAAAAAHHH!!!!!
So, looks like random baby jokes is gonna be the biggest I'm getting! Hair situation wasn't today tho...
Today I was just chilling. Oh yeah I kinda stumbled on some word as we where playing dota today and just gone "fuck everything" mode and started baby talking on V! Like "... so as we reach level 5 we must strike at the very moment, just disable him and redufff... fif almoh... Baaa! Goo hit badys WEEE! PUF PUF PLAAA-LA!" The silence was my answer and also I missed everything and failed our attack V wasn't happy XD
Especially since I always was very good at dota, like "I'm gonna be at cybersports mum!" level... yeh, mum don't give a shit about what you want, go do your homework son. But 5300 is pretty high mmr actually, so V is more used to me been the best of the best players on map, and nowadays I'm just fooling around even tho sometimes old habits kicks in like at the moment where I started building an attack plan, but the second I understand what I'm doing, "fuck everything" mode XD I'm not leading anyone, I'm not carrying the game, I'm just a baby squirrel running around, baby talking, throwing nuts at enemies sometimes XD
And it does feel better! It's like a form of therapy! I'm just training myself to let go, just do what I want and not what needs to be done. I let V be in charge even tho he is much less skilled player, whatever, I get to be leaded somewhere, just do as I told like a well behaved baby. Oh and he knows now that he can make me do anything he wants by going "You are a naughty brat!" mode.
I don't know if I like that he abuses it now. Like we get in an argument about any subject. Like recently... it was about alcohol. I'm not anti alcohol guy, I just drink VARY RARELY, but I do it sometimes. So I was trying to prove that crazy anti alcohol propaganda is awful. You lie about how bad it is and what does it cause, there we have a full of shit propaganda video that shows up at schools alot, and everyone saw it. It starts with "When a single drop of alcohol finds it's way into your body eretrocytes stick together to form blood clots..." and CMON Alcohol dilutes the blood! Yes alcoholic can have blood clots but because of damaged health, not because of immediate effects of alcohol!!!
My point is that you should put truthful info about everything! There also was bullshit about beer "Phytoestrogens are contained in beer in huge quantities, when a man drinks beer, he begins to turn into a woman" but in video where used Russian disparaging word for woman "Баба", yes, "Baba" literally like that, it's an assault to call a man like that in Russia.
Where was I... so in fact, phytoestrogens and estrogens are different biologically! You can't become a woman by drinking fucking beer, that must be obvious! But no. They make such a fool of us, that one guy who's dream is to become a femboy... DRINKS A LOT OF BEER AND THINKING THAT WILL MAKE HIM MORE OF A FEMBOY!!!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOUR LOGIC HOW DO YOU BELIEVE THIS SHIT!?
SO, I'm definitely winning argument with facts, with pulling out links to accredited scientific researches.
And V just goes "Shush! If I here one more word from you, naughty butt, I'll MAKE YOU learn this video by heart and you will be describing me in all details how much damage can one drop of alcohol do! Understood!?
- Uhum...
- Good, and don't you dare contradict grownups again!"
Isn't it fucked up that he is doing it only to get what he wanted? I don't know, sounds like a dream to be talked to like that irl! And he really nails the mommy tone!
Yeah and it was started from that HE'S DOING THINGS LIKE THAT IN DOTA NOW, even if I know that he's command is bad and we should totally do other thing... pfff, who gives a crap that I have twice your mmr if you can just do mama tone and make the little smartass shut up? That's it, no reason to listen to arguments now...
I just wish I could have someone like me, who knows ABDL and isn't so disgusted by it. Someone like me... I know what song am I gonna put today!
https://youtu.be/LCy19JV7t9o
