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To pretend or not to pretend?
2 years ago
You know what's one of the worst things in people's nature? We pretend to be something we aren't. And it's only nature, if a caveman pretended to be better that he is, he gets better chances of leaving offspring you know. So we pretend to be something we aren't subconsciously, it's in our brains on a very deep level.
Sadly, nature and evolution doesn't care a bit about you been happy. They liked each other after lies, they fuck, they make a baby, done, you can just die now, that's how I, nature, do things. And so people are so very often find themselves in unhappy relationships.
But what if person are looking forward in life? Surpassed that program inside, that subconscious call, looking for real relationships? For real-real relationship, looking to have a partner for life? You probably shouldn't lie about yourself, about your feelings, about your habits. If you really like to drink with your friends on Fridays til you are shitfaced, who would ever want to be with you? You might think "if it's true love, I'll just stop it, I'll change my life habits forever". That's an option, ofc, but will you be able to stop yourself for long? Or it will stress you constantly, burn you from inside? Depends I guess...
But ok, you've discovered that you want to be opened, you are now telling real you to surroundings, stop pretending. And so? Noone likes you that way, what to do now? Pretend again? To just feel loved once again and dumped in a month
cz you can't keep been the person you aren't?
That's kinda how I feel now. V and I just can't be together because we don't like ŕeal each other. We managed to open ourselves, ture selves. Noone knows him as well as I do, noone knows me as well as he does. But at the same time... we just don't fit in as a couple. I'm always busy and have no time to even sleep properly, always rushing everything, always running to make everything on time. He is slow, he has aaaall the time in the world, he likes everything slow. I'm not into actually fucking, everything around, the relationships, kinks, blowjob, but not actually putting my penis into he's asshole. And he just wants to fuck! I like to be forced into obedience, controlled on every step i take. He wants me to do as he asks, but not in dominant way, he asks to do stuff, not commands. He likes magic and conspiracy stuff, I'm the logic man, I'm ultra rational and trying to find explanation for everything in the world. We are been honest with each other, and find that we can work as a couple.
It hurts, cz I dunno anyone else like this... and feel like I'm doomed to be alone against the world, forever.
Sadly, nature and evolution doesn't care a bit about you been happy. They liked each other after lies, they fuck, they make a baby, done, you can just die now, that's how I, nature, do things. And so people are so very often find themselves in unhappy relationships.
But what if person are looking forward in life? Surpassed that program inside, that subconscious call, looking for real relationships? For real-real relationship, looking to have a partner for life? You probably shouldn't lie about yourself, about your feelings, about your habits. If you really like to drink with your friends on Fridays til you are shitfaced, who would ever want to be with you? You might think "if it's true love, I'll just stop it, I'll change my life habits forever". That's an option, ofc, but will you be able to stop yourself for long? Or it will stress you constantly, burn you from inside? Depends I guess...
But ok, you've discovered that you want to be opened, you are now telling real you to surroundings, stop pretending. And so? Noone likes you that way, what to do now? Pretend again? To just feel loved once again and dumped in a month
cz you can't keep been the person you aren't?
That's kinda how I feel now. V and I just can't be together because we don't like ŕeal each other. We managed to open ourselves, ture selves. Noone knows him as well as I do, noone knows me as well as he does. But at the same time... we just don't fit in as a couple. I'm always busy and have no time to even sleep properly, always rushing everything, always running to make everything on time. He is slow, he has aaaall the time in the world, he likes everything slow. I'm not into actually fucking, everything around, the relationships, kinks, blowjob, but not actually putting my penis into he's asshole. And he just wants to fuck! I like to be forced into obedience, controlled on every step i take. He wants me to do as he asks, but not in dominant way, he asks to do stuff, not commands. He likes magic and conspiracy stuff, I'm the logic man, I'm ultra rational and trying to find explanation for everything in the world. We are been honest with each other, and find that we can work as a couple.
It hurts, cz I dunno anyone else like this... and feel like I'm doomed to be alone against the world, forever.
