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9 years ago
Hey, sorry for the sudden hiatus. After my friend left this last weekend we all got pretty sick. So I spent the last couple days getting better and vegging out. Planing to get back to work today.
Just for some clarity about my gallery as I missed some explanations that came to mind latter. Specially when some one asked me about why their piece was suddenly missing.
I don't give people work I think is 'bad', Or try not to, Even when it ends up hurting me and my time and my schedule. I have a huge problem with this actually. I cannot stop until I think the work is 'good enough' to give to some one. Which more often than not has me spending hours longer on things that are supposed to come out in 15-30 mins or within an hour, taking me upwards to 1-3 hours to do each time. This is a HUGE setback for me and why I still can't manage to get everything done like I would like.
However I NEVER want to have a problem with people being unhappy with what I give them, and this usually outweighs my desire just to throw in the towel and call it when I've spent too much time tweaking on something as small as a sketch.
My OCD is a fucked thing when it comes to my art and oh does it ever take the piss out of me. Why I'm always asking people to be patient with me. Sometimes I've just had to deal with shit 'as is' and I cannot stand to look at it and it demotivates the hell out of me.
So sometimes I've drawn things that were 'easy' to do. Not bad, but easier more simplistic and poses i knew how to do quickly, So I can push through and get by. It's not 'bad' but it most certainly holds me up. I want to look at the things I learned on and got better on so I can push myself past this shithumphill that i'm stuck on.
Currently my mind is ahead of my skill and its driving me crazy trying to push passed it, and do the stuff I want to be doing in a reasonable amount of time. That's all. Having a cleaner gallery helps with that.
Thanks for your patience and understanding. Bare with me while I try and sort my shit out, this is an interesting part of my life and right now i'm hoping to devour myself in the art that I live for, and nothing else.
Just for some clarity about my gallery as I missed some explanations that came to mind latter. Specially when some one asked me about why their piece was suddenly missing.
I don't give people work I think is 'bad', Or try not to, Even when it ends up hurting me and my time and my schedule. I have a huge problem with this actually. I cannot stop until I think the work is 'good enough' to give to some one. Which more often than not has me spending hours longer on things that are supposed to come out in 15-30 mins or within an hour, taking me upwards to 1-3 hours to do each time. This is a HUGE setback for me and why I still can't manage to get everything done like I would like.
However I NEVER want to have a problem with people being unhappy with what I give them, and this usually outweighs my desire just to throw in the towel and call it when I've spent too much time tweaking on something as small as a sketch.
My OCD is a fucked thing when it comes to my art and oh does it ever take the piss out of me. Why I'm always asking people to be patient with me. Sometimes I've just had to deal with shit 'as is' and I cannot stand to look at it and it demotivates the hell out of me.
So sometimes I've drawn things that were 'easy' to do. Not bad, but easier more simplistic and poses i knew how to do quickly, So I can push through and get by. It's not 'bad' but it most certainly holds me up. I want to look at the things I learned on and got better on so I can push myself past this shithumphill that i'm stuck on.
Currently my mind is ahead of my skill and its driving me crazy trying to push passed it, and do the stuff I want to be doing in a reasonable amount of time. That's all. Having a cleaner gallery helps with that.
Thanks for your patience and understanding. Bare with me while I try and sort my shit out, this is an interesting part of my life and right now i'm hoping to devour myself in the art that I live for, and nothing else.
I can definitely sympathize with the difficulties of world building also. I've learned through trials that sometimes you have to kill your darlings to make the next generation of ideas stronger, but that doesn't make it any more pleasant. Good luck with rebuilding when you feel inspired to the task, however. If you ever want someone to bounce ideas off of, I'd be happy to chat! It's one of my favorite activities.
It only seems to get harder the more I progress too. Every time I do the stakes get raised and i'm starting to feel like it's too far out of my range and can't seem to pull it back down to my levle...
I'll keep this in consideration though, Your offer on the world building. But I seriously need to be able to come up with something on my own if i'm ever going to come up with something again.
For me though, It's more a matter where I have learned too much information for my world to be easily plausible like it was when I was younger. Now I have to do a shit ton of footwork to make it make sense with all the science and knowledge and my vast expanse with the technology we have today. I've always and forever have gone to the utmost detail of 'how things work'. With the information that's available to me, making that description isn't as simple as saying "It's this thing and it happens because of this." but now it's "This is the thing, It needs this and this and this to work. All the planets must align and break open the sky to have enough plasma energy to create the thing that caused this series of events." oh my god kill me. lol
More than anything, Things just aren't as simple as they used to be and I miss that, but I can't go back, we can't go back. I wan't things to be simpler and easier they just aren't, and most the time i'm left wondering whats even the point. I'm not making this for other people anymore and the chances of it being cared about aren't very good. I feel it slipping farther and farther away and have grown too tired to chase it. I've been chasing it so long I've forgotten why i was chasing it in the first place...
I don't know where i'm going with this...
I think you might like this link, though! Even though it's a recent discovery for me, I reread it every time I feel like I'm losing perspective— Which is basically always and forever now. Even though it is not quite the same issue, I still hope it will help you in some way, also!
Keep up the great work, regardless. Chin up, and as always, do your best.
Always keep trying, and never let any short-comings stop you. You're a talented individual and you have a limitless imagination and creative depth.
You can do it. I have, and will always believe in you, Jak. Keep it up!
had nothing to do with that though, I actually liked that character and the piece that came with it, I was already on the wall about removing it, but I just found the pose to be too straight forward and simplistic. It wasn't the character. It did show my ability to draw four armed characters relatively well though. So I kind of regret removing it for that.
sorry you've had such trouble with artists though.
I can't wait to get more ♥ Need to get you to draw my Sergal form next time... :3