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MFM 2019 Con Report
6 years ago
Sorry it has taken me a week to get to this. I have been doing nothing but nonstop running since I got back home. Between errands, getting dental work done, bicycle repairs, homework art, and more. This is the first chance I have had to do much for myself.
About MFM 2019... Emotionally, spiritually, socially, and artistically it was one of the absolute best Cons I have had in many years. I have heard the same said by many others. I went to the Con very unsure of myself, and very anxious. If you had read my post a few weeks ago about my bad drug reaction I had been unknowingly suffering under for a while, you'd know that I was just coming out of that. In addition to and as a result of had nothing new to sell at my table in the Dealers Den, and I was still having feelings of insecurity, and lack of self confidence socially. So, I took no fursuits, no cosplays, or gear. Just art supplies.
I soon regretted not bringing my pony gear, and Princess Big Mac. Everyone was shocked and a few disappointed that I had not. Once I ht the ground at the Con it was a non-stop whirl-wind tour of dancing, partying, and work. The best night for me was Saturday, when my herd and I got done with Felpur's Annual MLP panel, and ended up in a room drinking a shit ton of fizzy Strawberry Cider, and talking for three hours about all things Equine, MLP, and pony play. For the first time in a year I felt like I could be myself. I didn't have to lie, hide, or fear of being seen as a nut job. It was the truly wonderful! After getting thoroughly sloshed on cider and pony talk we wondered about the Con for another three hours, and late into the night. Though most of that three hours is hazy.
I went skating and rediscovered muscles and tendons I had lost a long time ago. I can't imagine doing that in a fursuit (like many others did). It was a vigorous work out for me. The Moo Shu Shrimp was AMAZING! There was lots of socializing, and lots of work for me at my table. I hated to have to turn down large painting commissions, but I had to until I can get my back log caught up. I had someone tell me that, “You are strange, but not creepy strange. That is why we love and accept you.” It was wonderful, and terrible. As it only made the alienation I have been feeling between me and my local fur group all the more apparent. Again, bad drug reaction assisted in distorting my reality, and I drove many of my local friends away (but that was another previous post).
As the thought of PCD was lingering, Alex in his infinite wisdom offered great advise for dealing with it. He said, “Flip that switch in your head. Turn that energy you would have used to be sad, and instead use it to get ready for next year. Don't focus on the past Con, focus on the next!”... I took it to heart, and and been using my energy to get shit done.
The over all report is one of “Hope”, and The opportunity to reintroduce my “True” self to myself again. The beat up, the messed up, the very eccentric, and the wonderful creature I am for the first time in a long time. That is a very abstract concept to try and explain. I got be myself, and see what that was like, and it was good. It was an AMAZING MFM 2019!
Anywho, I will see you all there in 2020. *Wink*
About MFM 2019... Emotionally, spiritually, socially, and artistically it was one of the absolute best Cons I have had in many years. I have heard the same said by many others. I went to the Con very unsure of myself, and very anxious. If you had read my post a few weeks ago about my bad drug reaction I had been unknowingly suffering under for a while, you'd know that I was just coming out of that. In addition to and as a result of had nothing new to sell at my table in the Dealers Den, and I was still having feelings of insecurity, and lack of self confidence socially. So, I took no fursuits, no cosplays, or gear. Just art supplies.
I soon regretted not bringing my pony gear, and Princess Big Mac. Everyone was shocked and a few disappointed that I had not. Once I ht the ground at the Con it was a non-stop whirl-wind tour of dancing, partying, and work. The best night for me was Saturday, when my herd and I got done with Felpur's Annual MLP panel, and ended up in a room drinking a shit ton of fizzy Strawberry Cider, and talking for three hours about all things Equine, MLP, and pony play. For the first time in a year I felt like I could be myself. I didn't have to lie, hide, or fear of being seen as a nut job. It was the truly wonderful! After getting thoroughly sloshed on cider and pony talk we wondered about the Con for another three hours, and late into the night. Though most of that three hours is hazy.
I went skating and rediscovered muscles and tendons I had lost a long time ago. I can't imagine doing that in a fursuit (like many others did). It was a vigorous work out for me. The Moo Shu Shrimp was AMAZING! There was lots of socializing, and lots of work for me at my table. I hated to have to turn down large painting commissions, but I had to until I can get my back log caught up. I had someone tell me that, “You are strange, but not creepy strange. That is why we love and accept you.” It was wonderful, and terrible. As it only made the alienation I have been feeling between me and my local fur group all the more apparent. Again, bad drug reaction assisted in distorting my reality, and I drove many of my local friends away (but that was another previous post).
As the thought of PCD was lingering, Alex in his infinite wisdom offered great advise for dealing with it. He said, “Flip that switch in your head. Turn that energy you would have used to be sad, and instead use it to get ready for next year. Don't focus on the past Con, focus on the next!”... I took it to heart, and and been using my energy to get shit done.
The over all report is one of “Hope”, and The opportunity to reintroduce my “True” self to myself again. The beat up, the messed up, the very eccentric, and the wonderful creature I am for the first time in a long time. That is a very abstract concept to try and explain. I got be myself, and see what that was like, and it was good. It was an AMAZING MFM 2019!
Anywho, I will see you all there in 2020. *Wink*
I'm glad you've found hope again; cling to it and don't let ever it go, look always forward, don't suffer your mistakes of the past, because today is when you are alive, and today, you will make it different.
It was a pleasure to meet you back then and one day, we'll meet again. Cheers mate!
It was my pleasure.
Yes, I was having a good time, for sure! *Grin*